Being Forced To Go To Church Ruined Church For Me.I'm twenty one years old, and I STILL get harassed by my dad to go to church when he knows I don't fully subscribe to Protestantism and I don't feel comfortable in a religious service I don't fully believe in.
My entire life I've had to be a trophy daughter and go to church service and church events when I didn't want to or believe in it, and my dad sees nothing wrong with it because it supports him.
I am glad that I know the Bible inside and out. As a history major in college, knowing the Bible and knowing Protestant theology really comes in handy, especially because I study colonial American history. For that, I'm thankful.
But the sad part is, I know way more about Christianity than most actual Christians I know, but I know it's bullshit. Isn't that always how it is?
Sorry, I'm definitely not trying to diss Christianity. If you're Christian, good for you. I respect that. I'm simply just... not. I'm Unitarian if anything. I'm fine with Christians; I just have a bad history of being coerced into certain beliefs and practices.
Coersion is the least successful form of conversion, which I've learned both from my personal anecdotal experience and my studying of history. Forget it being a not very nice thing to do, it just doesn't work.
I know that my dad's church puts food on the table and a roof over our head, but I never agreed to being a pastor's kid. I never agreed to any of this. I never wanted it.
Maybe Catholics have the right idea for the wrong reasons. Maybe clergy shouldn't have family, not because clergy should be celibate and focused on God and yadah yadah yadah, but because frankly, it sucks to be family of clergy.
I guess it could have been a lot worse. My dad's not one of those really crazy evangelical Jesus freaks, just mainline Protestant. Lucky for me, because I'm bisexual and a woman, two minorities evangelicals don't treat very well. I also smoke pot. Yeah, it's not popular with my parents, but it could have been a lot worse if my dad was one of those super conservative pastors.
Sorry, I'm probably offending a lot of you out there. Yeah, yeah, I'm a rebellious ungrateful heathen, blah blah blah, I've heard it all before.
cari7 18-21, F 9 Responses 2 Aug 21, 2010