Optimal Result

Like many I detest mediocrity, I hold myself to high standards and feel terrible if I fail to achieve them.

I am not pedantic about cleanliness nor a text-book psyche of OCD, however I believe consistency, order and ritual do buttress one to achieve their goals regardless of how menial the task at hand is.

From a young age, displaying exemplary behavior and achieving good grades were paramount in receiving affection from my dad and adulation from teachers and family acquaintances (as they would accost their children to emulate us).

Perfectionists all hold a common thread in that we know attaining “perfection” is often elusive, exhaustive and excruciating but the elation experienced is intensely intoxicating.

The reason I pursuit perfection is to camouflage my insecurities lest my vulnerabilities become transparent to those who desire to exploit naivety and ignorance.

But I guess true perfection is only achieved in a frame on imperfection.

umathena umathena
18-21, F
3 Responses Jul 10, 2007

that's good you notice that your perfectionism stems from a deeper insecurity

what EPErica said! ;-)

Very true. WE can only be considered perfect when there is something imperfect to be compared to. I think that true perfection is a myth, though. We can never achieve exactly what we plan, but can get close enough to be satisfied.