Help ... I Am Tired And Frustrated

I have quit smoking, biting my nails, AND ************!!!
But I am still struggling with ****
I want to be free
But the images are too exciting, enticing, fascinating
These sexual athletes are a wonder!

Here is my Confession -


**** / P0rn /Pron is the perversion of my Desire for Intimacy and Closeness

Posted by shreem75
on December 18th, 2012 at 10:28 PM


Man is a creation of desire,not a creation of need.
~ Gaston Bachelard

In no particular order, Here are the sublimated reasons why i am still addicted to ****.

My confession to the person on the screen - bearing what seems the closest thing to her soul...

I want to be special.
I want to be loved more than you love others.
i want to be allowed into the inner sanctum of your being.
i want to be trusted,
i want to be held close.
i want to get under your skin.
i want to be one with you.
i want to do things with you that you have never done with anyone
i want to do things with you that are special, exclusive and unique
i want to be with you because i find you beautiful
i want to know things about you that nobody knows
i want to merge with you.
i want to be you and i want you to be me.
i want your complete and undivided attention
i want ALL your love
i want to explore your being
i want to see how far you will go FOR me
I want to know the limits of your love for me
i want to know what you are willing to sacrifice for me
i want to know what you will endure for me.

How can i channel this desire from something gross like **** to something useful and valuable?

Please advise

Thank you God Bless
shreem75 shreem75
36-40, M
Jan 6, 2013