Cybersex Addict In Recovery

I have been here before, I think I've had 6 or 7 EP accounts actually, and they all have become perverted. However hard I try i am unable to stop myself going down the path of my addictive behaviour, and I believe that is actually one of the symptoms of addiction.

I have been a **** and cybersex addict for more than half of my life. My interests have escalated and escalated and recently, I have started having fantasies of carrying out some of my behaviour in real life, rather than just in the cyberworld. This is where things start to become seriously dangerous, so I know now is the time that I need to arrest the addiction.

I hope that being on here can in some way HELP other addicts see that they have an illness, and that there IS help and there IS hope. Obviously I am in very early recovery, I have had a big bust over the weekend and am trying to get back on the wagon.
slaathrowaway slaathrowaway
31-35, M
3 Responses Jan 13, 2013

Realizing and wanting to start anew is already an amazing, initial step to take. I'm married to a recovering **** addict under the GreatnessAhead online therapy program and I've been with him ever since. Several months after I found out about his escapades, I've decided to leave him for good. But without his intentions of seeking help, he won't be in a better situation right now. I mean, I can't support him if the willingness to change doesn't come from him, right? Having a great support system is extremely helpful. Kudos to you for wanting to change now. Be free and don't allow your addiction gain control over you. Best of luck.

Im starting to think we can't quit without a support group. As they say, watch out when you are lonely, tired, sad, angry, anxious, sick. Also If you believe in a higher power, mabey you can feel less alone. I have relapses all the time. You know what, don't even look at the confessions or do searches here.
Peace!

I agree. SAA use

H - Hungry
A - Angry
L - Lonely
T - Tired
as signs to watch out for.
Don't beat yourself up. Come and join us in an SLAA or SAA meeting.
They really do have an answer.

Thanks for your words. I'm struggling with you.

Friend, struggling alone is no use. You need 12 step fellowship, in SAA or SLAA, depending on your needs. Go and get help. There are loads of local meeting in most countries. They do on-line 'skype' meetings, telephone meetings, all female, all male and mixed meetings. People there understand! With their help you can learn to live with this addiction, but it takes work and dedication. inbox me, if you want to chat some more.