Not My Main Story But Relevant For the Last Year of My Life!
I have a lot to say about this part of myself, but this morning, I just was struck by this group. I didn't realize that I have never joined it. I have always been a glass half full, rose-colored glasses kind of girl. And over the last year, that has been an amazing gift - it has literally been a life-saver to me.
I have been very depressed - mostly due to the state of my 15 year marriage (that is a whole other can of worms) - and sometimes if it weren't first for my beautiful, loving and compassionate daughters (how can you not smile when your children are hugging you or sitting in your lap or snuggling with you in bed?) and second for my positive disposition, I may have made a really big mistake!
I can't contemplate suicide - I just can't help but think that things WILL get better - I know they will and that if I were to kill myself, I might miss some really GREAT things!! I know there are so many other logical reasons that suicide is not a solution plus I had a friend that DID commit suicide and that was an awful experience for her friends and family! My positive attitude is always there even when the logical thoughts weren't - even when I wasn't feeling rational due to all of the emotions and the depression - KNOWING that life will get better saved me - I have ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS had hope even if it was deeper down some times more than others!
I thank God every day for making me a positive person!