Xxx Nakedness ~ No Hiding Place XxxXXX NAKEDNESS ~ NO HIDING PLACE XXX
As a post~op woman of five years I thought I had travelled my path and had taken my penultimate step as I now live my life as myself in a busy professional and social life having experienced no difficulties or drama along the way.
Three years ago I decided to join a Sports and Fitness Club as I had just given up smoking.I felt I needed to get myself in shape and would need professional guidance to help me attain my goals.
I went along to a local Club,met one of the male trainers,had a good look around then decided this was the place for me.It's a huge place with tennis courts,squash courts,a huge gym area with dozens of different machines to help people aquire their required levels of fitness.There are also free weight areas and indoor and outdoor swimming pools
The next day I returned to my new club,no make~up just me as I wake up every morning,to meet my personal trainer who would set up a regime for me.I felt good about myself for daring to be this raw in front of a stranger.Everything was very relaxed and friendly with just the right amount of
professionalism.Once I had spent my time in the gym I went downstairs to the ladies changing rooms to have a refreshing swim after my exertions in the gym.
Obviously I had come prepared,shampoo and conditioner for after my swim and of course my swimming cossie,which I had bought a couple of months before,but had never worn in public.In fact I have never been naked in front of anybody since starting my transtion nearly 10 years ago now.
As I walked into the changing rooms I was visually overwhelmed by the sight of all sorts of naked women ~ of course you cry,what did you expect considering where I was ! You try it for the first time and you'll understand exactly how I felt.For 10 minutes or so I was in a daze as my head spun with the enormity of what lay ahead of me.Some women smiled at me as I began to unpack my sportsbag,in fact one lovely woman helped me understand how the lockers worked.But inside my belly was swirling as I knew I would have to get naked in front of these women.Up until this moment I had not for one minute thought about this or how I would react or how other women might react to my nakedness.So off came leggings,my bra and my knickers and I stood there as naked as naked could be.And guess what ? Nobody bothered ! Once I absorbed this, something within me smiled and glowed as I realised I had taken nearly the last step on my partcular journey (my final step will come when I become intimate with another woman).So I put on my swimming cossie.took a quick shower and skipped happily to the pool.Of course I would have to go through the whole process again after my swim ~ shower,towel off,getting naked ,then getting dressed and drying my hair in front of women I had never met before this unexpected,momentous day in my life.
Once again I learned that to be content and happy with ourselves we should learn to accept who we are,to really love ourselves warts and all,and get on with living our lives instead of making a huge drama of it all.Believe me,you cannot be more exposed or vulnerable than being a post~op woman who is naked for the very first time in front of other naked women.
KellyMac 46-50, F 26 Responses 9 Jan 13, 2011