Well..

My dad's a southern baptist preacher. We moved around a lot until I was 13 and that's when we settled for a church in a small town in south Georgia. That's where all the bullying got really bad (yes, I'd been picked on before) BUT this was taken to the extreme (with people picking on me, calling me awful names, asking me horrible questions they knew I couldn't answer without it sounding wrong, and singling me out because I was the preacher's kid. I was also ALWAYS picked last on any sports' team. Anyway, being a preacher's daughter, I've always had the need to be perfect. And in high school, I did my best to attain to that. Reachign for All A's (Which happened minus 2 classes freshmen year) but then I started cutting and developed an eating disorder (which I won't get into here) and then I went to college. That's where everything went to hell. I started drinking, all of my disorders have gotten ten times worse, and I smoke sometimes. I'm in my seconnd year of college and this is hell.
monkeybutt1993 monkeybutt1993
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 10, 2012

My dad was an Independent Baptist preacher all my life and I totally get where you're coming from. I was always expected to look and act a certain way. We moved several times while I was growing up, and since I wore thick glasses and was a sickly child, I was bullied all the time. But believe it or not, it does get better. I'm now in my 50s, I have a wonderful husband and two great kids. You are so young and have your whole life ahead of you. I wish there was something I could say to convince you of how much God loves YOU and made you just like you are for HIS glory. He's got a special purpose for your life that only you can do. People will let you down the rest of your life, but God won't. Get help for your disorders. You owe it to yourself. The world needs the best you that you can be. Someday, your future husband and beautiful children will thank you. I'm praying for you.