My mom just blurted out in the heat of an argument that she had been raped by 13 guys when I was conceived. At first it made me feel exasperated because this is the like the third story she told me about me. First was that a jeweler seduced her, then she told me she was a prostitute and my dad was a random unknown john. One time she gave me the name of "my father". Pedro Castillo is a name she blurted out. What the hell? I just want to know the truth. But I don't think that I will ever get it. And why would she **** around the topic with me so much? Let me tell you something that I find interesting. Most of my life, I am 38 years old now, I have not had any interest of knowing who my father was. I would see whole shows dedicated on finding biological fathers so these people would feel complete. I have never had that need to know my father. That's made me curious . Why do I feel nothing in the area of a biological father? Why would my mom mess with my head so much? Why won't she just tell me? Or drop it for good. Nonetheless, I have decided to distance myself really really far from my mother. I just don't understand. My mom is looking like the bad guy here to me. I'm just sad.