Lost and Turned Out
i started selling ***** the day after my 13th birthday,i sold my virginity for $364 dollars. at the time i was told i had to pay to stay(a family member told me this), and i had to grow up real quick after that. i started at truck stops then at about 15 i started working the track,i liked the track better because i got a lot more attention. i was a gorgeous little light skinned (cuban and black), jet black hair, nice body, little bonafide prostitute. i liked the attention from pimps and other prostitutes,i felt like i was a hot commodity. i traveled from state to state stacking money like i was a celebrity for awhile,then i had my first few bad dates or experiences or whatever you want to call them...ha, i kept hearing you better have a pimp or you won't survive in this game...i still didn't choose. then i turned 22 and decided i was tired of getting into situations and not having someone to have my back, i chose a pimp. this is making me so sad......anyways now the feds have locked my pimp up and i have been on my own again....i'm tired, real tired. i'm 29 years old,i'm not as attractive as i used to be,and i'm really all alone. i don't have any kids or friends or family (that care about me any), unless i'm doing something for them. i want out but the game just calls me back because it makes me feel wanted or desired, or i feel i don't have to be alone. i don't know, ****, it is what it is, i guess i just felt like venting.