I Am A Wolf

Hello to all. My name is Ryn and I'm new to this site. I have posted some comments already, but I would like to tell you a little about me. I am a female and a lone wolf (but hopefully not for long!) and I am so happy to have found a place with others like me. I first realized I was a werewolf when I was 14. That was when my first M-shift happened. I was arguing with my brother and I got mad; over the top mad. I actually growled at him! I could see that I didn't change physically, but mentally, I didn't feel like myself. Things like this started to happen moe frequently and now I've learned to embrace my true nature.
RynWolf01 RynWolf01
18-21, F
4 Responses Jan 14, 2012

Although it has been a while since this was first posted, I will still welcome you here. I am Drachona. I have been here for a few years. I am sure by now you have seen the stability (or, usually, lack thereof) of this experience. I am glad that you say you have embraced your "true nature", although I would like to stress that growling, howling, and having an "urge to kill" does not make one a wolf. I admit that, when I was younger, I thought that being what I am somehow made me more violent. It was the fodder I was fed by movies and television, and I wanted to feel sorry for myself, so I gave into the delusion. However, being a wolf does not make one somehow more violent than a human. Humans are, arguably, more violent (and certainly more needlessly violent) than wolves have ever been. As for growling and howling, I do both. Those few who have heard me howl love it, and I have accidentally scared a few people by growling without thought (such as while bench-pressing). However, those things do not define me, nor do they exist as significant identifiers of who and what I am. I came to my realization after a bombardment of nightmares and a few other odd experiences. Over time, my own behavior, perspective, and experiences led to my eventual acceptance of who and what I am. Only then did the nightmares start to dissipate. What defines us as individuals differs between people simply because we are individuals (single beings with unique experiences), but being a wolf can hardly be so simplified to growling and howling. That would be like simplifying humanity down to language and paralanguage.

how do you know your a wolf??

It's complicated. I'm still trying to figure some stuff out about this myself. Sometimes I have an incredible appitite to kill, and some times I just want howl/growl at nothing. I get these and other urges randomly. I can't put my finger on exactly how I know, I just know.

Sorry about that eyestokill. Let me elaborate on this subject. I was real tired last night when I wrote this and didn't care to write down more. But now I will. Like I said, it's complicated and I am still trying to figure this out, too. When I first shifted, and even before that, I knew I was 'different' from other people. I didn't know how and I didn't know why, but I knew I was. I'm also not the type to hang around humans, I don't get them and they don't get me, so I tend to stay away. But when my first shift happened I was agruing with my brother, my mind got fuzzy and I couldn't think straight. All I knew to do was to get out of the house before I hurt my brother. And I knew I would if I had not left. And when I said I get the urge to growl/howl, what I meant was that I do it automatically, when I get mad or frusturated, I growl and or howl, where humans would most likely swear. I got this 'werewolf gene' from my parents. Or more specifically, my grandfather. I know my grandfather is a werewolf because he is exactly like me, not too social with humans and when he gets angry, he leaves the house, and is gone for quite some time. This isn't all of it, and like I said I'm still figuring it out myself.

thats really cool i would like to be a wolf too;/ so what about your bro does he have a werewolf gene too..?

Not qiute sure if he has it yet. He just turned 14 about three days ago, so we'll have to wait ans see.

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Hi im ghost wolf i know how you are feeling i do it all to and i was 10 im now 33

Glad to hear it!

good for you you should always embrace it! it is a facinating gift. i have a friend with the same gift. she found herself around that age too.

Thank you silverfang.