Me Again,

I'm not sure if anybody at all remembers me; I guess my last post was almost a year ago.

I was 16 then, but have since turned 17.

First off, I'd just like to say no haters please. If you want someone to pick on, move on somewhere else, because unlike 90% of the people in this group, I'm actually serious.

Now, back to the reason for this post.

Too much Twilight ****. It's pretty much got me doubting everything about myself. Even though I'm nothing like the wolves in those movies, it's just the point.
Is that really what 'we' are? (We in quotations because I'm not even positive I'm to be included in that category.) Run around, turning into wolves, saving the world from vampires? Are there even vampires? Are there even wolves? Childish to question reality based on a fiction movie, I know. That's not what I'm trying to do.
I went through this the last time I was on here, and thanks to some very helpful people, it became a little more clear.
But quite frankly, I'm scared to death. I know no one 'like me'. But then I've never really brought it up to anyone. I tried once to just mention it to my parents and get their thoughts, but that was a total dead end. I haven't brought it up since.
Pretty much, the whole point to this is am I crazy? Lol. People had convinced me previously on here that I'm not, and I'm also not alone.
But the reason I'm scared to death is the 17.5 p-shifting age. Because I'm 17 and a half now, and I have no idea what to do or expect.
For the past few weeks, I've been getting these strange feelings. That's the only word I can think of for it.
My head starts spinning a little, and my entire body goes numb, but warm at the same time. And it feels like my whole body is just trying to stretch. Not stretch apart or whatever, but you know when you wake up first thing and do the whole-body stretch? It's like that, only involuntary and not as comfortable lol.
I stop it though. I don't know how to explain how exactly I do, but it's kinda like I just convince my body to stop, and it does.
I can't even sleep anymore. I WANT to sleep, trust me. I'd give anything to lay down at 10pm, fall asleep and not wake up until morning. But I just lay there all night. Until about 4am. Then I wake up 3 to 3 1/2 hours later. I didn't even know it was possible to survive off of that little sleep!
My whole body is changing, too. My hearing and sight are just enhancing. I used to have to wear contacts, but I've not for the past 5 months. They blur my eye sight now. My sight isn't zoomed in, I can't see a blade of grass on top of a hill or anything like that. It's just brightened? Intensified I suppose. Just more, if that makes sense. Same with my hearing. I'll be in my room, with the door closed, and listen to my mom who's all the way down the hall, through the dining room, and in the living room, with the tv on, and hear her phone conversation. I can't hear the other person though, just mumbling - it's not super sonic hearing. Ha.
Are these just medical conditions? I mean, after a while contacts could correct/enhance your sight? And if someone can have hearing loss, then is it possible to have hearing gain? And the spinning head, warm/numb body and stretching feeling could be medical too? Is it all just from lack of sleep, since most teen-agers have a hard time sleeping?

Am I just over thinking everything? Am I going crazy and have medical problems? I don't even know what to think anymore. And not having anyone to talk to about it makes it worse.
NothingSpecialJustMe NothingSpecialJustMe
18-21, F
4 Responses Nov 28, 2012

You'll be fine. It is natural to be confused when things start to change. Even the feeling of change itself is disoriented. Though you don't want to suppress it when you feel it, for that is what creates the schism between human awareness and wolf awareness. Then you get the whole, wtf did I do last night experience. You want the two parts of who you are to be in constant communication and interconnectedness. Just rest assured, this sort of thing has been happening for thousands of years, it is totally natural, and there is nothing to fear. Just remember, no matter what stay away from people when you turn, as it isn't like you become all powerful like the movies. They will shoot you dead.

you can defonetly survive without sleep i mean lookm at me i havent slept propperly ijn 4 years and im fine ZzzZzzZzzZzz huh? wah? oh sorry fell asleep lol not realy but youl be fine and those feelings probebly just you maturing as iether a firl or a wolf mabey even both my point is its nothing you probebly cant sleep because your woried about transforming

Sheangels mentioned this. You should be changing soon. You need to start looking for others, because personally I wouldve loved some guidance when it first happened

17.5 isn't the exact shifting age, so it might not be that. It's just around 17-18 is the minimum age where your body can handle the shift. Can probably happen anytime between 17-23, I believe. Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. lol