Rant...

I am told by people in NA to write it all out.
So that's what I'll do.
Here is my resentment outlet, enjoy.
Or don't, it's just me being pissed off.

Dear stupid *****,

Hey, you think there'll so great, those ******* fake little bicthes.
Hey, toddler in a ******* tiara you need to have your diaper changed because you can't seem to STOP BITCHING!
And that wanna be gangster, **** all of you are.
YOU'RE NOT THAT COOL!
YOU'RE NOT "HARD".
YOU'RE NOT WHAT YOU'RE PORTRAYING YOURSELF TO BE.
So look in the mirror and have some damn respect for yourself.
Stop sleeping around unless you want a ******* baby.
"CHIN UP, LEGS CLOSED, EYES OPEN" LIVE BY IT IF YOU WANT RESPECT SO BAD.

K,
We WHERE best friends, that will never happen again you white trash son of a *****.
I really ******* hate you for using me, abusing me, shoving your using in my face then bitching at me for it.
**** YOU ****!
You claim you have it soooo ******* bad, ***** YOU HAVE A BED TO SLEEP IN FOOD TO EAT AND PEOPLE WHO GIVE A **** ABOUT YOU!
I know because I was once one of them.
You have no idea how many times I wanted to slap you in the ******* face cuz of the **** you said or did to me or other people.
ESPECIALLY other people!
You're a ****** up little ***** and for the first time I'm glad you don't, oh wait, never did give a **** about me.
You claim you do, THEM ******* SHOW IT!
WERE WHERE YOU WHEN I WAS HAVING MENTAL BRAKES?
ANXIETY ATTACKS?
WHEN I SIMPLY NEEDED A FRIEND!?
I WAS ALWAYS, ******* ALWAYS, THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEEDED ME, ANYONE!
WHO CALMED YOU DOWN WHEN YOU WERE ABUSED?
WHO OFFERED THEIR HOME TO YOU?
WHO LITERALLY DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU?
Oh yeah, ME ************.
YOU ****** ME OVER, BIG TIME!
And for that I forgive you...
I'll pray for you...
The sad part is you don't see everyone who cares about you so deeply, who want to help you, who ******* love you.
You WERE, emphasis WERE, my sister.
Now, hah, now I thank God I don't have to deal with your bullshit anymore.
Get help, or die getting high.
Honestly, I don't give a **** anymore because to me you're already dead.

-The one person who USE to give a ****.


That just took every ounce of anger outta me...
Until next week...
COMING SOON!
MY LETTER TO MYSELF!
Kidd12 Kidd12
18-21, F
Sep 25, 2012