To Those It May Concern...

This is in fact an exact copy of an answer I put in someone else's topic, but I felt it 'good' enough to be posted as a separate entry... 

First a joke:
You know what they call an alcoholic who ran out of booze?
A man with a drinking problem...

Okay. I started drinking when I was fourteen. Heavily. That was in 1975. It lasted until I quit on the 19th of January 2000.
As of my 16th year -when I started working- I was drunk every night. EVERY night. And not from consuming 2 beers. On "good" nights I consumed between one and two crates of beer. Yes, that's between 24 and 48 beers.
On "slower" nights, I stayed below a crate.

Of course, there were longer periods I didn't drink, because of lack of funding. Longer periods means up to two weeks. Lack of funding means I lost yet another job for showing up late and that I had ran out of credit on the tab in the different pubs I went.
Didn't consume that much distillates, though I could stand 'em pretty well too. Pretty well means two bottles of Sake (unburned) over dinner at the local Chinese restaurant. Then drive to the coast on my Honda 750 at 120mph to go party. That kind of foolish business.
I swear there must have been nights I could distil my urine into 40% proof alcohol...
But in the end, it got too much. Black outs. Shakes. And not being able to pay for it any longer.
And hangovers. Believe it or not, but for almost 24 years of being drunk, I never had a hangover. I had weeks that I asked the bartender to make me a couple of sandwiches to go to work, but I never felt sick. Exhausted at times, yes, but never sick.
That started in 1998/99... Severe hangovers, sickness with throwing up also.
So I decided to quit. And I couldn't.

So I went to see a doctor and he recommended an implant called Antabuse. The implant is sitting just under the skin at the height of the appendix and reacts to the slightest bit of alcohol. It makes you feel extremely nauseous, to the point of throwing up extremely.
I took the implant and didn't drink for 8 months. No withdrawal symptoms to speak of, luckily. At least, not that I noticed.
But after eight months I got a new job, and with my first pay I was back in the pub. A woman I dearly love (Gina) has this small Café in Antwerp, so I went and paid her a visit, you know...
The next day I went back to wash down my hangover.
And while I was staring at my second Hoegaarden (local blond beer) I was thinking to myself what the hell I was doing and if I really was going to let eight months of sobriety go down the drain...
So I downed my beer in one long swill (hey, I paid for it) and ordered an Ice Tea. Lipton. From a can.
And I've never been drunk since.

I do still have the occasional beer. Very rarely. But somehow that stint of eight months of sobriety changed something inside of me. That urge to drink is gone.
Sometimes, I still feel it. When I walk along a pub and smell that mixture of stale beer and cigarettes. I get some kind of flashback, which reminds me of the comfortable feeling of getting drunk with friends.
Comfortable my ***.
I got other priorities since. Life in general, for example...
I had it pretty easy, for some reason. There's people who struggle with it all their lives.
I just wanted to add my story to show that it can be different as well... : )

jimmyrudyjump jimmyrudyjump
56-60, M
11 Responses Mar 30, 2011

Well you might've gotten past your drinking but you're still most likely a knuckle dragging butt munch of a subhuman. Luckily I went to meetings did the steps and that changed and I'm not even doing antabuse <br />
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Happy Joyous and Free baby!!! :-D.

Job well done!

Jimmy, thank you for the story. I just left someone I love because he has a drinking problem, similar to what you described, that he doesn't see as a problem. He choose to have a beer over being with me so many times. I just had enough last night. Your story gives me hope that he has a chance to get better, but also helps me understand that he will have to make that choice. Thank you.

Thank You for sharing Jimmy<br />
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I am a recovering alcoholic also. I havent had a drink in years. I started drinking at family parties when I was a young child like probably 7 or 8. Drank the head off everybody's beer. By the time I was 14 I was drinking with my friends. I always drank to get rip roaring drunk. Didn't see any other reason. By 16 I was drinking every day. In the morning for the "dog". Like you I had the black outs and of course I messed up a lot of things I would have otherwise been able to enjoy in life. I quit when I was 17 knowing I could drink or live - I had to pick. Then I went back to drinking after about a year and a half. Finally quit drinking on a regular basis for good at 19. People dont think I am an alcoholic. So I thought I could drink a glass of wine on New Year's every year. That messed me up. Finally about 10 years ago after going out to have drink with friends I got so drunk. I thought well I have this under control. Not! Found myself ready to break a bottle I could not get open about 2 months later. This is when I realized no matter how long I don't drink in between, even one drink was never going to be enough for me. <br />
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So congratulations on your sobriety, I know it was hard to win.

~follows pixie in~ I love it when people do well....... <br />
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congrats.... xx

Tread carefully, Smooches... we know it's a thin line sometimes... *gawd I love that mouth*

Congratulations! That's a really inspiring story. I am glad that you quit and learned your boundries. Bravo!

Thats an amazing story, it's like you flipped a switch. I'm impressed and very happy you were able to quit. ((hugziez))

i can't believe i almost missed this.<br />
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That's pretty impressive. When there's a physiological link like that (between substance and behaviour) it must be devilishly difficult to lose. Glad that you're still alive :) and that you're no longer so affected by it. That offers hope to everyone else.

((((((( JImmy)))) This deseves a gigantic hug! I had never heard of that implant. Good to know! I have an uncle who's been sober for 2 years. He struggled but he's doing much better!. I think this is so good to read because there are a lot of folks out there trying to overcome the same issue.