I Not Very Good At This

Hi

So I'm a recovering alcoholic, my story with alcohol dates a few years ago when I was in high school when I used to drink with my friends you know how it is. This little thing I had has evolved from being someone who drinks just for fun to drinking like i needed to drink something to make me feel better and stop thinking about how ****** my life is. This new habit of  mine went on for like 3 years of drinking and drinking and one thing lead to another I started taking pills. What alcohol brought in me wasn't what I hoped for I became moody happy and sad  at the same time but I wasn't a bad drunk, I feel like myself the quiet weird dude, even when before i pass out.

However, someday when I was drinking with the same ******* i used to drink with, I had what they call a " Moment of Clarity " and just walked out of the door and never saw them again. I stayed sober for like 4 months until my graduation Party and I got weak and got really really drunk and woke up the with worst hungover I've had. From that day I made a promise for myself that I will never ever drink again.

That was 4 weeks ago and this time I'm wearing a rubber band on my hand whenever I get this need to drink I just stretch it and let it hit me to remind me of the promise I made for myself.

Hope this wasn't too long, Stay Sober
Mishaari Mishaari
18-21, M
1 Response May 14, 2012

It's great to hear that you are staying sober. Are you involved in a program? I, too, had many false stops and starts. It took nearly dying for me to finally get to meetings and really listen and do the work. I've been sober for nearly five years now, and life was never better than this. I get "wistful" every now and again, but all it takes is remembering how close to death I came and how far I've come since that last drink to keep me sober. Best of luck to you.