I am a recovering alcoholic. I've been sober now for three and a half months but it feels like so much longer. I can hardly express in words how much I now love my life. Yes, I still think about a drink every day, but I have no intention of having one. What I've got now is better than any high drink has ever given me...and there are no guilt feelings to deal with. I used to spend all my energy working out where I could get my next bottle of vodka and where I could hide it. Now I don't have to make all that effort. Not drinking has become a damn sight easier than drinking. Never in a million years did I think I'd ever say that, but now it's true. Can't tell anyone how much happier I am... I wish I could tell the world! I've been through a home detox that was much less frightening than I thought it was going to be. I'm antibuse which kind of backs up my own determination to stay drink-free and for me it's working. I've had so much help and though it's still early days, I will stay sober because I want to. Not because anyone else says I have to but because I really want to!