Constant Battle To Stay Off Opiates
Ive been clean for 20 days today and feel a little less cofident everyday. I know i wont go back to what I was doing (needle use). the craving for just a little creeps on me day by day. I feel worn down and if had the drug infront of me i would of broken down. I keep setting myself up not to be in certain positions and I stay outta trouble. I have truely worn my body down with needle use and even had to muscle heroin at age 22 because i had no viens. Im hitting 3 weeks tommarow and 1 week away from my first month. Its what happens after that im scared of. If I feel like I got this beat let go and party after 3 weeks what am i going to feel like at a month. Ill just try and keep busy and stay outta trouble but dam f***ing up just sounds so good sometimes.