A Daily Battle

It's been about three months since I've last hit the meth pipe. Life is good right now. I get along with people now. My mood swings aren't so bad. But for some reason, as good as I feel I still want that one hit off the pipe. Its funny because after trying to quit the first time I would feel so dirty after smoking. But I just couldn't let it go. I dream about smoking meth almost everyday. I think about it all throughout my day. 

I try to keep myself busy so that I wouldn't think about it. But once I get that free second, I think about it and how my body and my mind felt. My body and mind was at war with itself but for some reason I liked it and I kept up with it for so long. Everyday it gets easier to stay "clean" but at the same time I'm thinking to myself " I can probably take one more hit and not get trapped again". I know better but temptation is something I can't fight or run from.


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1 Response Jun 26, 2007

Wow, Keep doing what your doing because the Meth life is a dark and lonely one. What caused you to quit and how did you do it.