I have been a self-harmer for almost three years now. I want to stop hurting myself this way, but I have to fight myself over it frequently. Every time I feel the need to burn myself or slice myself open it gets harder to resist again. Last week I gave in after a month of fighting it. I am getting better though. I remember when I would cut myself several times a day, and somehow convince myself that there was nothing wrong with what I was doing. I'd tell myself that it didn't hurt anyone but me, so it was no big deal. The truth is that I was in the middle of the darkest time of my life emotionally, and I was terrified to admit how much I was (and still am) hurting, even to myself. I'm still dealng with the issues that surfaced three years ago, but I'm trying to find healthier ways to cope. Step follows step; I just have to keep going and try to make a better future and let the past go. It's not easy though.