I Come By My Ep Handle Honestly
I obsess about someone I shouldn't even be in love with.
Then I start a new blog on EP, because I figure it's virtually impossible for anyone I actually know to stumble across it. This way I can blog and obsess and emote all over the place like an adolescent.
But, like an idiot, occassionally I take a chance, make a contact, express out loud a feeling I didn't mean people to know. I find her various online personas, but technically I don't figure I'm a stalker, since I don't try to contact her.
A moment of rationality and maturity reasserts itself, and I ask myself, "What the hell am I doing?!" Because I sure don't want to ruin my life. I absolutely don't want to crush the lives of people I'm close to. I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes.
There is a madness that's better than sanity, and I am in the grips of it.
I've always been a romantic. Now it's getting worse :-) and I guess I'm good with it. I really do feel like an idiot, though. I'm such an idiot! I used to have a pretty good self image, and boy, now that's shot all to hell!