What The **** Have I Done?

What am I doing with my life my *sob*... I lay in my bed all day long lying to my friends and family about what I am doing with my time. I don't work out like I used to. I stopped out of school this semester to get a job but I still haven't even looked for one. I'm broke. I have friends who love me but I don't wanna deal with it cuz I'm... I'm just not worthy of being liked. I wish people wouldn't trust me, I'm not worthy of being trusted with responsibilities. I have let my family down many times when I say I'm going to do something and then I never do... my mom said to me for the first time the other day that she was ashamed of me *sob*... what the **** have I done? I have dreams just like the rest of you.