I am a sad loser. I just only been knowing her for the last 9 months. She is way out of my league. I think she is happy to be married. She knows she is good looking. I realize I fall for physical beauty. She is quite smarter than me. She is successful. She is a better person than me. To her I am only a friend. She has a better sense of humor than me. She works harder than me. I can't never reveal any feelings I might have for her, because I don't want to lose her as a friend or hurt her feelings in any way. I don't think I can do better than her husband. I don't even know if I am in love with her. I admire her. She makes my day better. I wish I could live again so I can make a better life and be with her but I know that's impossible. I wish I could one day be able to compete in case she gets divorce. I could not possibly sabotage her marriage because she might love her husband and I would not want that to happen to me. Her husband is the luckiest guy on earth. She is just too much for me. I am such a sad loser. I don't want anything less or anything more than her. I can't get what I want. I am such a sad loser.
26-30, M
2 Responses Aug 20, 2014

nothing its imposible!!!!!! be positive.... u can get better if u really wish, never is too late.... u are breathing.... u are aliveee so keep trying not matter what... love??? love is hard but not imposible....... try, try harder, try keep runing, keep waking up..not matter what if u are alive..... u can try...