Somewhat, In A Nonsexual Way

I don't get sexual pleasure out of someone being hurt or scared, but I do enjoy it sometimes. But if it's someone I truly care about, I won't be that happy, but I won't really be worried, either...

I smile sometimes when someone gets hurt, or I'm glad it happened, just for the sake of it. It's usually what they say when they feel the pain. Ah, ouch, ow, damnit, (mmph), oof, whatever. It just makes me smile. I daydream about hurting people that I don't like (which is most of the students in my school).

I also have a bit of a masochistic side, but it's not that much at all. I don't like to be hurt, just under someone's control. And sometimes I want the "exposed" part of it, but not always.

I've been like this for years, since I was...four? Really early. I only recently accepted that part of myself. I'm not embarrassed by it anymore. Why should I be? As Dr. Seuss would say, those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.
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3 Responses May 21, 2012

i am a polish girl from poland and this girl i know , her name is angelica ... she is such a **** yet feels so innocent cause she has that cute baby face ....
even more the joy when she is hurt and crying .
can you please tell her on whatsapp : kurwa , kill yourself you ***** , i am coming for you at kielce .
that would fill her heart with terror for hours . and she would probably cry haha
here is her number : 0048791561551

I'm kind of like a semi-sadist (I don't enjoy sexual pleasure, maybe). But I do love to see others getting hurt.

Perfectly normal, I think. Perhaps my opinion is skewed, but don't most people get a certain amount of pleasure out of seeing others in nominal amounts of pain? What else is slapstick? I doubt you have any need to identify yourself as a sadist.<br />
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Regarding your "masochistic" side, you say you like someone else to be in control. Maybe you're submissive?