Almost Over The Edge

I get really sensitive with things. I can't stand yelling I can't stand the anger in my house. It's to much to handle, to much to hear. I try to drown it out with music but it says in my head, it won't go away. There's too much emotion inside and I want to release it so badly. I want to feel the blade run down my legs where no one can see. But I won't give in. I'll deal with the tears, the shakes, the numbness, and the feeling of not being able to breathe. I deal with it. I won't give in. And when the morning comes, I'll put a smile on my face and pretend everything is alright so no one will ask what's wrong. To my friends it's a crime to not smile because I always smile. I will not let my disorder control me, I will not let the depression take me to the dark place. I wont give in.
BeautifulStarlight BeautifulStarlight
18-21, F
5 Responses May 16, 2012

Be strong hun...let me knw if u need someone to talk to! Would be more than glad to help..

I admire your personal strength.

I grew up in a family that fought everynight also. I use to blast my music to. One day it will get better. It is hard to smile whenever you have something so hard to live with. I have scars on my arm from when I use to do this. You can actually overcome this without meds, however if you feel you need them, get them. You are a strong person. If you ever just need to get something off your chest feel free to inbox me. I hope life gets better for you soon.

Thank. I feel better reading these

That's good.

You sound like a strong person. It's good that you express yourself. Don't keep it in, share with those you trust. I wish you the best.

I hope you will be stronger dealing with such life preassure. You are tougher than your looks!

yeah. i try to make it seem like its not serious so i don't have to take meds, even though it might help a bit

You are doing a good job...keep it up and don't crack under preassure.