Why Did I Tell Them?

ive been cutting myself for over four years now, and last night something really bad happened to me, i found out so many bad things about how people had lied and cheated on me and disrespected me and i feel so low and bad about myself, if i wasa better person these things wouldnt happen, i need to be a better person so i toldmy parents that im still cutting and they are getting my therapy and i am so so so scared i wish i hadnt told them i dont know how to do this or what i dont want my parents knowng why did i tell them! :-( now they willbe checking up on me and i wont be able to cut! eugh i make myself sick why should i want toi feel so stuck in my head :"(
simbaninja simbaninja
18-21, F
1 Response May 22, 2012

Hey. Months ago, I told my mom too and didn't actually know why; I just wanted to tell somebody who would actually care. She has sometimes asked me if I still cut and that makes me nervous. I don't like to talk with my mom about that. And still sometimes wish I'd never told her, but I know (deep down) it was the best for me, because someone that cares about me, knows it and wants the best for me. At first I was sad because I knew I wouldn't be able to cut again, but then learnd that that was the best. What I'm trying to say is that maybe it seems ''wrong'' right now that you told your parents, but wait.. everything will get better. It was for the best that you had the courage to told them.