Hope

Im too sensitive for my own good. My ex and I have this very strong bond, we know when the other person is thinking about us, we can feel the want to be together, we can feel the want just to talk to the person. We dont know what the other person is thinking exactly but we do have a very strong emotional bond and right now its driving both of us crazy but we are both scared and feel that us being apart is the right thing for us. I haven't spoken to him in 5 days and the urge to call him or text him, e-mail him whatever is so strong. I knwo that I need to give it at least two more days.

Im hoping that he will be the one to text me or call me or e-mail me but theres a 0% chance of it, im always the one to get back in contact with him. My hope will soon turn into expectation and im just going to get let down. Seeing how I know all of this you'd think i would just get over it and move on but I cant cause the hope of hearing his voice at least one more time is all i have right now.
YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet
26-30, F
7 Responses Jul 29, 2010

I never once said he didnt care about me. All I said was there was a very slim to none chance that he would be the one who would contact me first, that doesnt mean he doesnt care about me that just means that I give in too easily, which i did and everything has been going great. <br />
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I wish people would stop telling me time heals everything, Time never heals anything. Sean and I were apart for 4 years and time didn't heal anything at all. Then we got back together and all we tired to do was make it the way it use to be, it took us 10 months to finally just except the situation for what it is. <br />
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I have never met my mom and now i never will cause she died when I was 16, time cant heal that, im not going to go find a new biological mother, thats impossible. <br />
time can never heal that wound.

move on ur life.. if he dont care about you why should you? get new friends...n try to divert ur mind from him as much as you can... time will heal everything

I know exactly the type of bond you are talking about and your hopes and fears.<br />
Love really hurts at times. I hope it works out for you.

Oddly enough when this all went down i thought it was good we were moving on, especially him cause im the only girlfriend hes had. I dont want to be his best friend or even talk to him once a week i just want to make sure that him and i are on the same page and i know thats really hard to imagine cause im being all psycho about this but Sean knows me almost better then anyone and he alone should know when im trying to manipulate a situation but because he has 7 people around him talking **** about me its hard for him to have his own opinion. <br />
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I didnt want it to end like this.

It sounds to me like he's trying to move on and perhaps you should try and do the same. I know how painful this can be, my first love was in and out of my life like a yo-yo, but I realized I was never going to get on with my life if we didn't have some distance between us. So we stopped talking for a while. Not to be devil's advocate, but I can sort of see where his new girlfriend has a problem with him speaking to his ex. I would definitely have a problem if my partner was still speaking to his ex. It's no easy situation to be in, but it will get easier, even though it doesn't seem like it now.

We've been apart for 4 years before, time isnt a remedy. this time around its really over, he has a new girlfriend and im really scared that shes going to make him put a restraining order on me. Im nto stalking him, I text him last night for the first time in 5 days but she seems like the type to turn him against me as she already has. I just want him in my life even if we only talk once a year for 10 minutes to catch up a bit but everyone around him is going to tell him im trying to manipulate him and he needs to just let go of me, I dont know if I can handle that. The last 5 days have been hell.

I've been there and done that, but my ex had the uncanny knack of getting in touch with me just when I was starting to cope with our being apart. It will get easier, but time is unfortunately one of the only remedies. But maybe in your time apart you'll come to realize how much you mean to one another. I wish you the best of luck.