Never EnoughSome may call it denial, while others might call it avoidance, but, I call it survival. What am I talking about? Have you ever had situations or even a specific incident in your life that if you thought too much about it, it would bring too much pain or depression...so instead of thinking about it, you avoid it as much as possible? Further, has there ever been any incidents where you think, "Did I really do this or that?"
Like "Theory of a Deadman" sings, 'It's like one step forward and two steps back"....."Nobody wins when everyone's losing"..."I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street."
Sometimes I guess you just have to shake your head, not go down the path of pain that others' cause even by memory and keep moving forward. It sure isn't easy. Friends are great if they can truly live up to that title, but reality is people often do the unexpected, even those that you feel or want to have the best of intentions. I guess it comes down to cherishing the moment versus putting too much stock into the overall, as you just never know what lies ahead. Perhaps I am starting to see that in some or many instances, "it's never enough to say I try," and no matter how much one does, in some situations, it doesn't seem to matter or make a difference.
Hang on to the good for all that it is worth.