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Never Enough

Some may call it denial, while others might call it avoidance, but, I call it survival. What am I talking about? Have you ever had situations or even a specific incident in your life that if you thought too much about it, it would bring too much pain or instead of thinking about it, you avoid it as much as possible? Further, has there ever been any incidents where you think, "Did I really do this or that?"

Like "Theory of a Deadman" sings, 'It's like one step forward and two steps back"....."Nobody wins when everyone's losing"..."I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street."

Sometimes I guess you just have to shake your head, not go down the path of pain that others' cause even by memory and keep moving forward. It sure isn't easy. Friends are great if they can truly live up to that title, but reality is people often do the unexpected, even those that you feel or want to have the best of intentions. I guess it comes down to cherishing the moment versus putting too much stock into the overall, as you just never know what lies ahead. Perhaps I am starting to see that in some or many instances, "it's never enough to say I try," and no matter how much one does, in some situations, it doesn't seem to matter or make a difference.

Hang on to the good for all that it is worth.

SmartSweet1 SmartSweet1 51-55, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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I think I know where you are coming from. I have become a master at avoiding emotional situations and I think it has actually developed into Avoidant personality disorder (APD).
The world in general used to bug me a lot, now I do my best to avoid others because it's simpler.
Anyway good luck with your Survival methods.:-)

Sometimes I believe you are right. The less involved you get, the less likely to be hurt. People don't seem to appreciate others or something.

Sounds like your well on you way ; )

I tend to look more for contentment. Since I've been doing that the sad times seem to come less and not last so long. The happy times seem even happier and more enjoyable.
Heck even many of the sad things and times make me laugh now!

That's most awesome. I think being happy with what you have and not fretting over what could have been, or what might be etc is best. Keep smiling! :)

I do understand. What is tough to conceptualize is how things even go sour in the first place. :( Sigh..