My Husband Is Tired Of Me......because he's known me too long (we've been married for 22 years), I am too familiar, and he "needs a 'professional' who is young and exciting." Really. I am supposed to be okay with this. The truth of the matter is that I have a job and he doesn't and he knows that he cannot afford to support himself.
I realize that this whole situation is disgraceful, inexcusable, and shameful on his part. I have been saving up my money so that I can afford to leave as soon as possible. I have a bit of debt to pay off and then I'm out of there. I used to feel sorry for him because I really cared about him. Just because
he's decided that he "needs other women to be haaaapppy," I don't all of a sudden hate him. Now I just need to be away from him and leave him to his own life.
I have come to realize that there are no good men for me. I agree that there are lots of good, wonderful men, many of whom are husbands, but no one for me. All I seem to attract are users: Do you know how to cook? Do you have a good job? Do you have any money? Are you a good housekeeper? Will you take care of me and my immediate surroundings so I don't have to do anything?
Once I leave my sorry excuse for a marriage I will be alone for the rest of my life. I've had it. I don't agree that there is someone for everyone. I'm past 40, about 5 pounds overweight, have plain brown hair, and don't have a lot of money. I'm very nice and friendly and a good listener and a good cook, but have nothing to offer anyone. I'm just like thousands of nice women who "just aren't good enough" because we aren't fashion model- millionaires. I really had confidence in myself at one time, but being involved with men has set me straight. I just want to go and live in a cave someplace and commune with kindly woodland animals and trees and lakes and rocks.
elmajackson 41-45 5 Responses 1 Mar 4, 2011