I Have Flash Backs, Very Repetitive But Not Clear...

I think I want to remember and then the pain is too great....and I want to say it didnt happen...the hand on my throat, the pain in my vagina, the sense of my heart breaking in shock and terror as I am raped by someone I love, the child in me who adores her father....is heart broken and terrified...and a part of me shuts off and down....but i need to remember now so that i can love myself and be loved and not be afraid of this corner of darkness...
adjuva adjuva
46-50
Jul 16, 2010