In The World At Home

This is new and I never thought I would actually tell anyone. I hope that I am not making a mistake.

14 years ago I found out about my first time through cancer. After radiation, chemo and 7 surgeries later, including full hysterectomy, I was back on my feet. I fought hard through that time, because I did not know what was coming. Three years later was time for 2 bout o f cancer. I was not as strong this time and it took a lot out of me. I started to get out maybe once every month. I stayed in bed most of the time because of feeling horrible and light headed. Finally another light at the end of a tunnel, so they put it. I just could not get out of the pattern I was in though.

Another 5 years went by and guess what? Once again I am sick. This time though I do not even want to try. If it wasn't for my family I probably would not. I also have blackouts so I do not go out at all. I know there are many stories out there. I just do not know how to deal. I hope to find others who understand what it is like to be closed off from the world except for TV and this computer.

Thank you for reading. I probably did not write this very well, just a hard feeling to explain. Take care.