Don't Go Outside!

it's funny how sensitive to light and colors i have become from staying inside my brown house. once when i had no choice but to go to hell-mart i became quite ill. i had a headache within five minutes. it's too bright in there. the smells were horrible. sensory over load. plus i get nervous when i have to go out. it's like i don't know how to handle myself in public. oh and god forbid i have to talk to anyone. i wonder if i will eventually go insane. that would be interesting. 
fatgirl fatgirl
36-40, F
5 Responses May 10, 2007

I know what you are feeling. I have to go to hell mart tomorrow and I am crying about it tonight. I just starting talking to someone on the net and feel a little better but that does not push out of this hole I am in. I have become more isolated than every in the last 3-4 years. Days become weeks, become months, become years.... I am so tired of the battle. Peace

I go in the middle of the night. I find it to be a little quieter, and dealing with people a lot less. Mainly it's me and then the Check out lady at the end. You're not insane, just a recluse. In today's world of rush, rush, rush and people are so self centered and rude, it's a wonder more folks do not stay in all the time.

Good job getting out there though, I can't even do that.

Likewise for the last couple of sentences. Its not really a fear for me, just a feeling I get around people. lately.

Never know, maybe we all are...<br />
Insane I mean.