Bitter Sweet Ness...

Bitter sweet! I am coming out of a relationship that was like living with a good friend. I was so lonely and so attention starved, that I during these years of
togetherness, I lost myself. Walking away from her was one of the hardest things I have ever done. She wasn't someone who treated me badly, she treated me better than anyone I have ever been with but the love was lost and I am not sure it can be found. I feel as if I am too far gone and ready to move on with myself. She is in pain and I know this. I hate hurting the people I love but in love didn't seem to be in our vocabulary.

I moved out...I am now living with a friend and I am not as lonely..strange. I feel as if I am not sure if I am coming or going...Which direction I should go..where I am going to end up...I just want to be happy again. I want to find myself and I refuse to settle. Life is too short. I have to figure out how to be alone...I am still attention starved..but hopefully that will pass...

Such bittersweetness..

Loopylu Loopylu 31-35, F 3 Responses May 20, 2010

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dunno why reading your story it reminds me of myself.

i feel like i'm being with a friend too..

yes.. it's definitely hard to leave, and you 'did' it!

it's normal to feel lonely when you're single, you felt that when you were with her, it's because she's just not the right one for you, that's why.

you'll meet 'the one' soon, don't lose hope.

i understand u.

Hang in there. You made this most difficult of decisions with much thought I am sure. The most difficult part of a seperation is the first 6 months, then things will become more clear. Believe me, there is MUCH beauty in living a fullfilling single life and more rewarding than an empty coupled life.

Best wishes