My Babies

I have two children, my daughter is 2 years old and my son is about 2 months old.  They are my world.  Before I was pregnant with my daughter her "dad" and I were going to get married, he had met all of my family and friends, he asked my parents if he could marry me, everyone LOVED him especially me....then 4th of July 2006 I find out I'm pregnant, a week after my first dr visit he says we need to talk.  He sits me down and tells me he's not really divorced, very hard to take in but i took a deep breath and said ok we can fix this...then he says I'm still in love with my wife and everytime i tell you i'm seeing my son i'm really going home to her.  I couldn't breath, was crying so hard i didn't think i would be able to stand up, i tried to call my mom but i couldn't talk when she answered so i got in my truck and started driving, pulling over a few times to throw up.  Nobody has ever hurt me the way he did, but the day i saw my daughter it was all worth it...i fell in love with her. She is 2 years old and he has not laid eyes on her, he tried to hide us from his wife and family...but once the DNA test was done for me to get child support i contacted his mom and dad...his parents and sisters visit us all the time, we are a part of their family now...and he still has not tried to see her.

  Now a couple of years later, i've started dating a guy that has been a good friend since we were kids, he loves me, he loves my daughter...we are picking out dresses and flowers for our wedding.....and guess what...I'm pregnant!!!  He is so happy everything looks good we are talking about girl names and boy names....a couple of months later he's cheating!!! So far he's seen the baby twice...he didn't come when i was in labor because he says he didn't have the gas money.....instead he shows up to the hosptital the next day.  So here I am 25 years old with my two babies...i don't think i want anymore...and i don't think i'll ever try to get married again.