A Year And A Half Strong :)I've been a single mother since November 2008. I have three marvelous children who always keep me on my toes. I love it! I have my struggles with them. My son is VERY stubborn and hard-headed, but amazingly stealth at being sneaky that I can only admire him. He is 3. My oldest daughter Karleigh is about to start preschool, she is turning 5 in November so she misses the age group that can start Kindergarten by a month. I think she is brilliant, however, dramatic. I have no clue where she gets that from, probably me though. My youngest Arieanna, two years old, she is what brightens up my day first thing in the morning. It still amazes me how excited she gets to see me when I pick her up at daycare. I recently took her to the doctor concerning her posturing. She may have infantile spasms (a form of epilepsy if I'm not mistaken). I feel like I neglected her health because I didn't think much of the motions she made from time to time until I realized this past month, it can't be just a phase because she does it all the time. So she is getting referred to a pediatrician who might refer her to another specialist but it is going to take months. I am very concerned about this now. And very scared.
Concerning how I feel being a single parent: To me this is a life I've always wanted. I really enjoy being the only one who can control how my children grow up, their behaviour, what they see and what they learn (not in a bad way, but if I chose to stay with their father it would have been very different). I feel bad sometimes because they don't have the fatherly figure around often enough and it scares me for my daughters especially. I like that I live in a smoke free, drug free, alcohol free home. I like that they aren't exposed to that like they would have been with their dad around. Sometimes it is a lot for me to handle. I don't have breaks, I don't go out on weekends, I don't have friends to babysit my children, but I don't regret any of that. To me, they are all I ever need.