Please Share Your Words Of WisdomMy baby will be a month tomorrow. And i have suffer with depression since pregnancy but never got help because i was afraid of being put on meds. Please dont judge me but i got pregnant with someone i didnt even know i had just days of meeting him. but i didnt have the heart to get rid of my child so i decided to keep her knowing of the circumstances. i just never knew it was going to be this hard. My child's dad hasnt really been there for us and since i got pregnant till now i only seen him maybe about 10 times. I'm so tired of him and i regret letting him sign the birth certificate. He knows i dont have a job and doesnt even help me buy things for the baby and when i asked him he makes me feel like ****. He makes me feel like if i'm ugly, worthless, not good enough, and at times a bad mom. which i know i'm not but his words are so hurtful. I just want help i want someone to love me and my child. i cant even look at my baby and tell her i love her without crying. i feel like i ruined her life she has no family no real dad, and a mom who doesnt have a job, hasnt finished school, still lives with her mom and choose a deadbeat as a dad. I'm afraid of her holding grudges against me becuase of my poor decisions. all i could offer my child is love but its not enough. how can i move on, how can i be stronger. i tried to be nice but i just cant anymore he has taken my kindness or weakness. he has 2 days of from work and he only comes to see the baby one day a week and only for like 3 hours. and while hes here hes on his phone planning his night leaves in a hurry because he rather hang out.
does anyone know how can i go to court to get sole custody of my baby? i have asked him several times if he doesnt wanna help or be part of my child's life to give up his rights but he refuses. i dont want to take him to court and the judge to grant him visitations rights where he could take my baby to sleep over his house. i dont know him, dont know who he hangs out with or what he really does for a living. how can i make a judge see my way. i was abuse as a child and i'm afraid of it happening to my daughter.
with moms with the same experience how did you get out of this depression? is there really a light at the end of the tunnel. i feel like god has punished me with my baby daddy i dont think im strong enough to handle this situation. my whole life i took care of myself becuase i was afraid of this situation. and for some reason one night i end up pregnant with someone i didnt even know with a loser.