I'm A Single Mother, And Sometimes It's Hard

I became a single mother when my now 3.5 year old daughter was a year old. I have no regrets about leaving her father as he was emotionally abusive and I am a million times happier without him. I do wish though that I had had a child with someone where we could have raised her together happily. But that is not to be, so I don't dwell on it too much.
As it is, I love having my daughter to myself when she is with me. Her dad was an idiot to me, but he's a good dad and very much involved with her so I get time to myself too, which I feel grateful for because I can only imagine how tough it is to get no breaks at all.
However! Sometimes I just find it all so damn hard. There's nobody else there to pick up the slack when you're flagging and your child's running you ragged. There's nobody else to help diffuse a tantrum, to do the night wakeups (not that my ex ever did them when we were together ha) to carry them when you have 10 bags of shopping and a child who wants to be picked up and carried home etc. There's nobody else to cook dinner, to tidy up, to clean the house. Sometimes I find it all so overwhelming. But, having said all that, I love my daughter more than anything on this earth and she makes me smile and laugh every single day, even on those never ending, tantrum filled days she still raises a smile from me at some point. I feel blessed to have her in my life.
nosilalouise nosilalouise
26-30, F
Dec 15, 2012