Single Mom With No Family.
I am struggling this year. Its my first Christmas as a single mom and its been really tough. I dont have any family around and my son is at his dads house for the afternoon. I moved in 2 years ago with my sons dad because he proposed to me. Less than a month later my dad unexpectedly passed away from a heart attack. The week after I buried my dad, i found out I was pregnant. I didnt think about my dad while pregnant because I didnt want to stress my baby out. Four months after I had my baby I started suffering severe postpartum depression. I never wanted to hurt my son or anything I just didnt understand my new role and I was angry that I experienced the most amazing thing and one of the most tragic things within a week apart. I dont know it just hit me how much I wanted my dad to see my son. I suffered ppd until my son was a year old. Now he is 19 months. Instead of my sons dad helping me he went against me and started documenting my feelings to later use against me in court as part of what is still a lengthy custody case. I am hurt. I am alone and I am confused about how my sons dad could do this. He left in July and I have been struggling just to get by. I moved from a city I loved just so I could get married and have a family. Now I am in a city I hate, I cant leave. My sons dad and I share 50/50. I am really lonely and just try to provide the best home I can for my baby. I am a bartender on the weekends and have my son during the weekdays. Im gettting exhausted and more lonely as the weeks go by. I guess I just needed to vent.