I Am a Single, Independent, Career Woman, But I Hate Being a Single Mom And Just Wish I Could Get Married to Someone I Love, Settle Down, Share Our Lives Together And Make a Family.My daughter's biological father gave me a false pretense to go on. We were dating for over 2 years when I was seven weeks pregnant and we found out. He said he wanted to get married and even bought me a ring. After I hit the second trimester, he told me that he didn't think that it was going to work out between me and him. I was devastated but I found the strength to ditch him and move to be closer to my family when I was in the beginning of my third trimester.
Now she's 1 years old. He is not a part of our family. He has never come around and most of the time I don't think about him. Which is just fine by me. But I worry about my daughter and worry that she'll grow up lacking in some way because she doesn't have a daddy. So many times I come across kids that are lacking in some way because they were missing a mom or a dad and that's NOT what I want for her. My dad and my brother are great with her but still--I cannot help but to worry.
I am dating a really nice guy. In fact, all the men I date are very nice and we usually continue being friendly even though our romantic relationship ends. But I have a (not all bad) habit of cutting them out of my life and putting an end to it when I even get an inkling that they are starting to be even slightly detrimental to me and my emotional ability to be a good mom, and therefore, in turn, my daughter.
It's the classic "scared by the risk of putting your heart out on the line," but I don't know how else to operate because my daughter's father scarred me. I'm exhausted by the "search" for the right guy and honestly? Though I am a single, independent, career woman, I hate being a single mom and just wish I could get married to someone I love, settle down, share our lives together and make a family.
queenprussia 26-30, F 51 Responses 21 Oct 2, 2006