The Wake Up Call

  After my divorce 7 years ago I did every thing in my power to be a super mom.  Instead of seeking professional schooling and employment I worked at the kids elementary school in order to be on their schedule.  We continued to move to keep in the district that they were used to.  Time has went on, and I now find myself with a 17 year old daughter and a 12 year old son.  My daughter and I have always had a good relationship, so I thought.  She just admited to me that she used to cut herself and thinks of it again.  My son is fine and our relationship is still good.  I hate to think of where I went wrong!  I have always tried to listen, be there, raise her with respect and love.  Now I hurt so bad and realize that children can really tear your heart out.  I can see how some parents just "let go."  I dont want to do that but now i am trying to get a career in Clinical Research and going to school and being the everything is about killing me.  I am just rambeling on.
prodigalaz prodigalaz
41-45, F
2 Responses May 20, 2007

Do not beat yourself up about your daughter. The fact that she told you now means she wants your help so be there for her to listen. You haven't done anything wrong. You did the best you can do. The best you can do now is listen and if she asked for advice give it. She is your child but as she grows older, she turns into your friend.

WOW! All those years of devotion to the exclusion of your own needs I bet. If you knew that this rough phase was coming before it came, how would you have coped differently? You have so much to teach those like me who are not far behind you!<br />