I Am a Single Mom.
OK, I will not b i t c h too much for 2 reasons, 1. I Love my kids and 2. I know there are many women who would give ANYTHING to be a mother, whether they be single or married and I truly do not wish to disrespect my children or the women who would switch places with me in a bl
I'm not asking or even wanting to give up being a mother, it's just as a young child this was NOT the way it was suppose to happen. I NEVER once thought that I would divorce (not sure why considering the statistics) but seriously this is NOT what I signed up for, OK so allow me to indulge for a few minutes and have my very own pity party.
My sons are truly amazing miracles to me and I do consider them a gift, BUT please this amount of responsibility can sometimes be overwhelming and I know that I have it better than many other single parents. I never have to worry about my ex paying child support, and I am VERY GRATEFUL for that.
Buy my grade 7 and 5 math skills SUCK and as for french, Lord I barely remember a word. I hated homework when I was a kid, I don't want to do it AGAIN, i don't do it obviously but i have to help. Science projects are a NIGHTMARE, i HATED science, i don't want to watch things grow in a pee-try dish, or freeze *things* in my freezer. Lord my kids bedrooms are a scientific ON GOING experiment. OK so HOMEWORK SUCKS.
Now we have to deal with puberty, yikes, I'm a girl, thank heavens i had brothers so i knew what my sons would deal with and of course I am not a complete idiot when it comes to male anatomy. BUT seriously what 13 year old son, wants to hear about wet dreams and morning erections from their MOTHER!! I'd rather have a lobotomy than having those discussions with my kids, which i did, because my ex wouldn't and i didn't want them TERRIFIED about these things.
Now it is also time to talk about ************ and let them know that it is normal and healthy and that despite what other parents may say they will NOT go blind. This was NOT part of my childhood fantasy when thinking of the stupid white picket fence, 2.5 kids and a dog.
SO i am watching my innocent, pure, babies turn into young men, with hair growing EVERYWHERE!! Lord i hate this. Now i knew this day would come, but DARN i thought i would have a husband to deal with some of these delicate issues.
ALMOST done. So dealing with the emotional issues of their changing bodies, I'm also tired of doing EVERYTHING. It never ends, i sleep less and worry more .... did i sign that school trip form? When is Pizza day? Are their gym clothes clean? Where are all their socks? Can i meet all my financial duties? How much is gas going to cost this week? Hell did i get the oil changed recently? Shoot i forgot to change the filter for the furnace. Crap there is a bird's nest in the troughs?
OK my b i t c h i n g is over and i feel better. God Bless my kids .... BUT Calgon .... take me away!