A Brief Expose On My Blend Of Good And Bad

You know, I've been doing something right, because I've made friends and contacts in the hotel industry, where I hope to end up working.  People generally have a positive impression of me and tell me I'm a nice guy, which has been one of my lifelong ambitions.

Underneath all the good traits are the negative ones, though, which I keep hidden from view.  I have a pretty despicable past, obsessing about *********** and sex and sometimes not treating people with a lot of respect.  I've really cleaned up my act over the last three-and-a-half years, but I will always have to be wary about ****.  I hardly go there any more, but I cant' let my guard down either. 

I'm glad I've started to develop healthy relationships with women -- friendships, that is.  I have to remember that I can't do anything about my past, even though it still haunts me sometimes.  I can just work on the future and make positive choices, while keeping my demons at bay (The demons are a bunch of p***ies anyway.  Still, no one really wants one of those around either.)
UnderEli UnderEli
46-50, M
Aug 4, 2010