I Am a Sociopath
Hello, let me begin by apologizing for how disjointed and badly put together this whole story will be but my mind does not allow total focus, or at least what you would call focus. I am here looking for answers, There is something wrong with me and I have no idea what, I suppose I should list some symptoms huh.
1.overwhelming apathy towards most things
2.Dislike of other humans (I view them as evil as my insanity grants me certain almost 6th sense like insight and empathy)
3.I am an expert at sensing motives, reading body language, saying exactly the right thing, when someone has a conversation with me i know what will be said and how it will roughly end the second it starts.
4. I have a constant stream of pure chaotic thought, like a white noise, like all my thoughts and memories are trying to be known at once, this makes it difficult to focus on anything at all.
5. I can't hear people talk, I mean yes my ears work and i hear them, but i almost instantaneously forget what they said, I have to focus 100% and strain to even talk to someone, unless I'm trying to accomplish something and talking to them is needed then I can manage for a while.
6. mild visual hallucinations, nothing major, shadow people at night, things darting from the corner of my eyes, blurred faces peering through my windows at night.
7. I have a consciousness living in me that is not me, this is no split personality, this is a separate entity with its own thoughts and desires, he is made of pure thought, he can speak and think and it's just ******* nuts.
8. My feelings and views and opinions are pure chaos changing and undulating all the time, I believe in everything and nothing at the same time if that makes sense (see discordianism)
I am rambling I know I apologize like I said before my thoughts are chaotic.
If you have any insights or any questions I would like to hear you respond.
1.overwhelming apathy towards most things
2.Dislike of other humans (I view them as evil as my insanity grants me certain almost 6th sense like insight and empathy)
3.I am an expert at sensing motives, reading body language, saying exactly the right thing, when someone has a conversation with me i know what will be said and how it will roughly end the second it starts.
4. I have a constant stream of pure chaotic thought, like a white noise, like all my thoughts and memories are trying to be known at once, this makes it difficult to focus on anything at all.
5. I can't hear people talk, I mean yes my ears work and i hear them, but i almost instantaneously forget what they said, I have to focus 100% and strain to even talk to someone, unless I'm trying to accomplish something and talking to them is needed then I can manage for a while.
6. mild visual hallucinations, nothing major, shadow people at night, things darting from the corner of my eyes, blurred faces peering through my windows at night.
7. I have a consciousness living in me that is not me, this is no split personality, this is a separate entity with its own thoughts and desires, he is made of pure thought, he can speak and think and it's just ******* nuts.
8. My feelings and views and opinions are pure chaos changing and undulating all the time, I believe in everything and nothing at the same time if that makes sense (see discordianism)
I am rambling I know I apologize like I said before my thoughts are chaotic.
If you have any insights or any questions I would like to hear you respond.
By:
Caulder89
Age:
22-25
,
Male
