This Is a Message to All of You

I've read most of your stories and whatever was in your profiles and I can't begin to understand why most of you wish for a miracle cure. Why do you want to change yourselves? Why not accept who you are?

When I signed up to be a part of this group, I thought I could see myself in some of you, but unfortunately all I see is how pathetic and negative you are. This is NOT a disease. It's a way of life. And for those of you seeking sympathy, pity, understanding or whatever you want to call it, I don't think this is the place to get it from.

I never wanted for people to understand me because I know they can't. I am beyond understanding, beyond human emotions and feelings. They're my pets. Have you ever seeked understanding from a dog? Compassion from a cat or a bloody canary? This is exactly the same thing.

I am powerful. I am in control of my life and that of others. I think this is something worth embracing and making the most of.

I wish you could see through my eyes how beautiful this is.

LilithSamael LilithSamael
12 Responses Dec 1, 2008

When you detach yourself from emotions like love, hate and fear, with or without choice, life becomes a great game of decisions and endless possibilities, you can never really lose emotion, just see it from a new perspective

People like you should be dead, thank God there is people with the same "advantages" plus love and you will never deceive them, they will stress you out and some day, one of them will kick your nasty sociopath ***. it's a war baby!! Lovers Vs Hunters

it's war?

I'm with you OP. This 'disorder' gives advantages in many aspects of life.

After reading your post, it appears to me, the best treatment for sociopaths is the death penalty and to purge the earth of all socipaths which infect the lives of good people

Of course, wanting to kill what you don't understand, how neanderthallic of you.
We are causing no real harm, perhaps a little emotional anguish but that is far better than us becoming bored and wreaking real havok on the lives of others. You are extremely narrow minded, to think that you could 'purge' anyone with such a condition. Children will still be born with it, it's not always handed down through genes, sometimes an anomaly that happens, sometimes even developed later in life.
The fact that you decided to use the word 'purge' indicates you have some deep inset attention issues, you may want to get those dealt with, you cannot expect some penance on us for just existing. We're not mindless beasts, nor inherantly evil, so to take such extremes is just barbaric.
Congratulations on being the first person to actually lower my IQ with their horribly written and quite frankly idiot comment. Kudos to you sir.

Wow, someone else who sees it the way I do. People are only as important as they are useful to me. If I meet someone who can produce actual stimulating conversation with, I won't perceive them as a friend, more as an amusement, something to keep me from being bored. If they starting becoming boring to me, I would cease contact, even if they considered me as a 'friend'.<br />
People on here seem to be far too attached with the conception of becoming 'normal', whereas I see no use in it, it would only serve to slow you down and cause you problems. Like this I am comfortable, my only problem being how bored I get. Which is easily fixed by any form of human company, whether they are for conversation, manipulation or they serve some other purpose. <br />
So stop complaining, go out and amuse yourselves as we all have to.

There's certainly wrong with anyone who seriously wants to "get better", though I don't know if that means they're not really a sociopaths or if it just means they're weak. I'm inclined to think the latter.<br />
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Don't get me wrong, I sometimes wish I could connect with people better, and I wonder what it's like to have a conscience, but it's not worth it. Not even close.

What if I am the WEAK one? i dont know what to do anymore. My life is awful.

I believe you are in the wrong place if you're looking for sympathy.

I love your rational thinking and argumenting.

I'm gonna have to agree with mysticsovereign<br />
anyways, I'm out of a job again, so I'm back looking for easy ways to make good money...

Fabulous, honest stories. Again, your personality serves a purpose in the world and you are being "filled" or earn riches. I agree, those who want a cure, or whine about hating others are not sociopaths. Please write some more. Your honesty is refreshing, interesting and entertaining reading.

To Empty01,<br />
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I think everyone on this planet is "dealing with the boredom of passing time". Why else would the US entertainment industry reach some $280 billion in sales each year (close to $1 trillion globally)? Simply because people are bored and NEED the entertainment.<br />
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At the age of 15 my brother and I were diagnosed sociopathic. The doctors said we were a unique case since my brother and I are twins and because the tests results were so clear, which is very rare when the patients are under 18 or 20 years of age. That same day our parents decided to put us up for adoption. Of course they never told the agency about our tests results so the people at the agency had to find out for themselves. It took them about a year to figure it out and had 2 doctors involved to confirm their assumptions. So once again we were labelled, packaged and shipped to the nut house. My brother and I left the same day we got there and have been on our own ever since. <br />
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My brother and I have worked our way up over the years and are now part of that multi-billion industry. This is something we wouldn't have achieved had we been "normal". To be able to achieve something most people only dream of, to be in control of your life and that of others, to be admired and envied... this is what I mean by "beautiful". Achievement, Power/Control, Wealth and Recognition.<br />
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The emptiness inside must be filled with something else, so filling stands in lieu of feeling.

I'm not sure what you mean by beautiful? If you mean like how two pieces of a machine can come together to function and achieve and end result perhaps you're right.<br />
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There is no real point to the game anyway, except for dealing with the boredom of passing time

I actually agree with you, and the mention in your previous story of the confessional brought a smile to my face. You see, as I am different from you in numerous ways, understand you better then you probably think. The people here who want a cure don't so much confuse or disappoint me, as they make me pity them, that they strive to be like everybody else instead of embracing what they are and being better for it.<br />
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I myself have had similar experiences to the one you recounted, I have been praised for how well I portray evil. It is not so much that I am in any way evil, there is simply no difference to me.<br />
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I am considering writing up another 'story' as this site puts it, as the one i wrote upon joining the group was before a number of self revelations.<br />
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This group, though a nice place to see other's slightly similar experiences on the subject, seems to be plagued by misguided misanthropes such as the author of the story directly previous to this one, or the others who look upon this as something to be cured.