All There Is Is Information...

My memories tend to escape me. I rarely know where the knowledge i contain comes from. So i tend to run experiments to see the proper reaction of certain situations.

  However people tend to be more different now than when i was younger. emotions do not add up often. For example my father got my mother a new car for he birthday, she cried and i was confused. That was a lie. she didn't get the car for her birthday or better yet i just don't care the reason she got the car, all i know, or really care to know, is that a happy event happened and she was crying. This no doubt confused me cause i only remember my mother crying on two occasions. one time i think it was a party and another at a funeral. This was the first emotion that truly confused me. however, i was only confused briefly.   

  I now lost interest in writing this.... 

I will just make this short I will take what i need from you, you do not tell me what i need and give it to me that is utter bull ****.

Once i have everything i need from you, you can go die.  you have no other  purpose you are all here to give me what ever i need. 

I'm not sure why but my older brother attempts to beat me in control but he has failed miserably i have won and he has lost  and i already have his ego and I have his will. the same goes for my parents. I have used them. They have nothing more for me.  

Why won't they die! There job is over. 

The continue to try to teach me. how can someone as inferior as your selves teach me anything. You are all imperfect. I have no flaws! 
 

Well maybe one...

No...

no... 

Its not a flaw.  Its something that i want.... I need... Something i will kill to take.

A dream.

If i could have on maybe i could see a vast array of emotions. Maybe i could understand things a little bit more. 

No i understand just fine. It would keep the boredom at bay however.

 

I got a new girl friend. 

 

the old one bored me, she became to mundane to repetitive with her constant emotions. nothing new. nothing else to learn. I took her heart and left.

She was sad.

She still is sad...

So.

I hope this new one is better more exciting.

No, i know shes not. 

We've been together for three months. She does keep me interested. never a dull moment.  

Never a dull moment... 

Control...

That is my purpose 

My raison d'etre...

The lady in the chair... that is another lie...

People tell me that when i say that i want to take over the world its just me being impulsive. 

No its not. 

I will

I need to control. 

without it things get boring.

Raakam Raakam
18-21, M
32 Responses Feb 9, 2010

Of course you did. It was inevitable.

We knew it was coming! ;)

Does this mean I can make 'tard jokes?

So are you love, so are you! SMOOCH.<br />
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(gimme the morphine you know you got it)

EccentricOne, you are a joy...DD

Dew you know better than to tell her that! She'll be able to form some sort of comeback out of all of that.<br />
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Oh and share the pain meds kthx.

“You're just unusually decrepit.”-Phage.<br />
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Dear Page is your memory worse then mine? I do have “pre-mature ageing” due to spinal stenosis, severe at C-1,through 5. The bones are in danger of breaking if I fall etc.<br />
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Worse I have increasing Global Neurology Damage that causes pain throughout my body. I am never without some type of headache from cluster, stress(Ha!) to migraine. I am both optical phobic and audio phobic. Both light and sound can cause me to have a seizure if unexpected or intense. <br />
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I almost never leave the house without careful planning. <br />
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I am dieing of an exceptionally depilating and increasingly painful disease. Although it is called “Global Neurological Damage” no one knows what causes it or how to cure it. <br />
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I believe it is a gift from my Dark Goddess Mother. I have had an unusual life and I am thankful for all the challenges and pain my Dark Mother has gifted me with<br />
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I believe I am stronger for the experience. <br />
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Ha! I do get some reprieve per some of the best pain medicine my Doctor Rxs for me.<br />
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My only complaint is that I am not as sharp as I used to be. That and the fact that I can’t hunt you down and spank your little butt. <br />
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My wife got me this pc because it became so difficult for me to go outside last November 2008. I think it is almost worth it because I have been able to meet so many interesting people through EP and a few other forums. <br />
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You, Phage. Are one of the most interesting…DD

You're joking, right? My mother isn't much younger than that and she's in fine health. You're just unusually decrepit.

Ha! At 66 it is more truth then a joke...DD

This thread is now about Dew's body parts falling off.

Yeah, not only does your ******* not stink, but your eye stalks are remarkably straight and your wings have all the feathers they're supposed to.<br />
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Be careful with that knife, we wouldn't want you to slip and lose another body part. Just think about how much I'd make fun of you if you didn't have opposable thumbs!

******* laugh out loud.

EccentricOne, I believe Phage is sweet and protects her heart with all this wicked, hurtful, spiteful verbiage. She does do it in a clever way and I like Phage very much. <br />
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It was almost nice when she said everyone’s ******* stinks except mind. I can’t recall Phage saying a nicer thing to me. (Stiff stiff) I could almost cry but I am busy carving a sharp point on this long wooden pole…DD

Phage is a very sweet girl too. Don't forget that. :)<br />
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Oh and I did choke on that. Choking was there. So there. <br />
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Vlad is my 100th uncle.

Well, you know what they say. Opinions are like ********: everyone's got one and they all stink. Everyone except for you, that is.

Phage, You may be right. If I got you alone I just might put my knife away and try impaling you on a sharpen log as Prince Vlad liked to do. Ha! I am only joking, you can trust me. <br />
Seriously, I like you even as you hurt me. Yes, missing my as*hole is a sensitive subject <br />
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Witch is why you keep rubbing it in. Mmmmm, you bring out a side of my bring a sociopath that is known but rarely talked about. Yes, we have few feelings and our happy to take advantage etc…but some of us are also hunters. I am 66 and very ill but you bring out the hunter in me, my blade needs one more taste of blood…DD <br />
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Phage, You may be right. If I got you alone I just might put my knife away and try impaling you on a sharpen log as Prince Vlad liked to do. Ha! I am only joking, you can trust me. <br />
Seriously, I like you even as you hurt me. Yes, missing my as*hole is a sensitive subject <br />
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Witch is why you keep rubbing it in. Mmmmm, you bring out a side of my bring a sociopath that is known but rarely talked about. Yes, we have few feelings and our happy to take advantage etc…but some of us are also hunters. I am 66 and very ill but you bring out the hunter in me, my blade needs one more taste of blood, but never a woman's blood…DD <br />
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EccentricOne, I also miss hearing sweet girls say…”*choke* ^<br />
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Oh. My. God. I choked!”…DD

*choke* ^<br />
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Oh. My. God. I choked.

Were you this obsessed with ******** when you still had one of your own?

Hi Phage, Eccentric and EvilDemon.<br />
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This post could only be of interest if Raakam got a photo record of himself sticking 3-4 starving rats up his as* and then stick a 6 inch metal rod up his as* hole and duck tape the hole thing. Hand cuff himself to a rafter and tell us what he thinks a real sociopath is like…DD

Just play along Phage, play along! It'll be a little treat!

Lye rolls? I'm not sure how that's exciting...

He can whip us up some lye rolls! Yah! Excited even!

But rat poison is for rats and unwanted older relatives. Given his penchant for bad poetry I think that drinking lye would be a more suitable death.

Yes rat poison kills you in an hour or two. No meth.

@Eccentric... Ok... this could kill maybe an hour or two.<br />
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@Phage No... my response was sufficient enough.<br />
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@EvilDemon I think you may be right about the whole psychopathy thing... after asking some people the traits to tend to add up differently. most likely they are wrong.

That doesn't sound much like begging to differ, it just sounds like disagreeing. Try it again, more begging this time.<br />
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And definitely don't tell anyone no smoking crack.

A hypnotism session. To make you a sociopath... DUH?! You are supposed to be reading my mind here! Do I have to explain it all to you? <br />
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What kinds of things shouldn't you tell people? No smoking crack?

I would beg to differ, Phage <br />
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You clearly have some issues that make you slightly more flawed than I. <br />
Ive been told i should try to make friends on here so i should'nt tell people those kinds of thing.<br />
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And EccentricOne, A session?

I will pencil you in for a session as well.

Well, I'm better than you, that's dead obvious even without having read more than a few sentences of your story. I find this group to be quite productive and entertaining, and if you're too soft-skinned to take a little abuse, well, that's hardly our problem.

I am not a troll this is real. this is my first post and first account. I think my friend may have sent me on a wild goose chase she said there are "sociopaths" here and that it would be good to talk to them. <br />
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Well this seems to be a bust.<br />
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I just noticed something.<br />
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A group of "sociopaths" talking Is counterproductive. <br />
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Because if you are anything like me you know you are better than everyone else so you are going to try to assert yourself as if that person is less and that person will in turn assert themselves as being better. <br />
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ultimately when a person expresses the words that run through their mind, the same as what i did, they will be called a troll or looked down upon.

Isn't this the same guy who claims to be perfect? What a laugh.