MY Experience

i cannot deny the presence of God, because i have always felt it.

i seek him (her?) out in all things. [it's easier for me to say 'he' not because i'm convinced of gender, but because i've been raised judeo christian.] i seek him out by reading scripture, but i'm not limited to the perspective offered in the bible.

i seek him out with my life. with my choices. with daily prayer. with questions. with doubts.

i love him because of what i've seen of him. because of what i believe God has done. i believe he has created an incredibly complex world, one complete only when pain exists, one that allows people to feel the range of emotions that God must feel himself.

a God that creates beauty must be infinitely beautiful. a God that requires poetry and art must be infinitely creative. his natural world is a gift, i feel, that we each can embrace and love. or reject.

i think when people reject God, they reject themselves.

this is my experience. i know that many people are sensitive to the topic of our creator, and i don't want to argue my feelings. my feelings may change tomorrow, because when one seeks out God daily, one's position is constantly shifting.

but because of my love for him, it's impossible not to share these feelings. they overflow, brim out, and splash down.

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1 Response Mar 21, 2009

I can't ever remember not believing in God. He is. He was. He will be. That's all we need to know. He has never changed but as I have grown older and sought Him in scripture and in prayer and in thought my views of Him have changed. He is God and I am not and that's all I need to know. Be still and know that I am God. How can you not believe when you love? Where does that feeling come from? It is the strongest feeling we have as human beings. Yet, we can only live finite. God loves infinite. We can't truly encompess in our minds all that He is. He has held me up when I couldn't stand on my own. He has blessed me and my family and though I have walked in darkness (depression) His Light has never gone out and was always before me even though I closed my eyes to It. Praise the Lord all ye people...Amen