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I Am A Succubus

Do you know how scary it is to hear thoughts in your head in your own voice but know they aren't your own? Do you know how scary it is finding out it's not some elaborate game of dungeons of dragons but a real thing? It feels like I am losing my mind and losing myself. The first thing I think of when I see someone of the opposite sex is what it would be like to seduce them, and what method would be most effective for doing so. My kisses make a man dizzy, my touch makes them weak in the knees. I've been a heart breaker without meaning to be, I feel like such a contradiction. One side of me is quiet, shy, and innocent. A hopeless romantic and good hearted person. The other side of me is cold and cruel, knowing all the ways to get whatever I want and having no qualms about being a relentless, heartless sex fiend to get them. I am so confused right now, I don't know anything for sure anymore, but I do know that if you tell some you have a 447 year old demon borderline possessing you, you will get several dirty looks, can anyone relate to this or am I alone here?
Elizabethmidnight Elizabethmidnight 18-21, F 48 Responses Nov 13, 2010

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I have the same symptoms, I'm perfectly fine with it, but it is hard to deal with at times, I've randomly broken up with two boyfriends, one the first one when I was in high school, we were together for 8 months, second one was for 2 years. I don't want relationships anymore, I'm afraid of hurting another.

Sometimes I thought it was extreme narcissism and severe emotional distress however now I think about it and it seems very odd how I can anticipate the desires of men and women. As I read this article and the responses there are striking similarities, I even have a favorite kind of "prey" being extremely good natured men. All I can think about is seduction when I meet new people no matter their appearance or situation. I try very hard to reign it in but it's as though some deviant predator takes over my senses. I see some referring to a "voice" but it's like a whole other creature living within me. Last night I was with a man who I genuinely care for and it was a vicious struggle to not take advantage of him. Despite being without make-up and in jeans and a T-shirt he was completely enamored. As he leaned in to kiss me I had to physically hold back and that darker part of me did NOT like that. I started shaking uncontrollably and became very frustrated and aggressive which for some reason he was even more spellbound by it. This is so very difficult to live with and I thought it would dissipate with age. It seems stronger and more mature, is there anyone out there who can explain what's happening to me and possibly point me to a solution?

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I'm a male with a succubus, however my succubus attracts females - my feminine nature attracts the masculine nature in women. Animus and Anima; Yin and Yang - sexuality is quite interesting - even on spiritual level.

I myself is like this but however I do hear voices telling me to do things I can't find them quite well but or just wanting something and being able to get it no matter how many hearts i breakwhen I kiss someone they get dizzyor when they look into my eyesit's almost like a perswad them to do anything I can do this is both sexesI break hearts even though I don't attend to..... and there is no doubt that I am a succubus and now I'm filled with rage and I've hurt a lot of people and no regret I'm tired of being pushed around

I had this weird experience last night with my girlfriend. We've been dating for about a month and things have been really intense sexually since the beginning. She came onto me really hard at a party, even though she knew I was kinda seeing one of her friends. Our first kiss was so passionate and sent chills through my whole body. Sometimes I feel lightheaded after a passionate make out session.

When we have sex, I feel as though I'm outside by body. Her touch makes me shiver with bliss and makes my body convulse. I've really enjoyed our sexual energy until last night.

We were kissing on the lawn and she just kinda took me over and was kissing me so hard. My eyes were closed, but in my head, I could see her sucking energy out of me. I could see my energy field getting smaller and hers growing. It really scared me and I pulled back and laid down on my back. She asked me if I was ok and I said I needed a minute, but inside, I was really terrified.

We have a really strong connection in multiple ways, but as I start thinking about things, I wonder if she has just been after my energy. When we make love, I feel as though things are reciprocal, but now I'm starting to doubt things. She's also said that when she's having physical pain, if I touch her there, the pain instantly goes away. She also says she never has nightmares when she sleeps in my arms.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to end things with her, but I'm scared. I have so many lofty personal goals that I want to achieve and I'm worried that spending time with her could prevent me from progressing towards those goals. I've never had such a strong physical and emotional connection with someone, so I don't just want to end things because I usually feel really happy with her.

Should I just figure out how to set better boundaries so I keep a majority of my energy for myself? We have a great communication, so do I tell her about this experience? If I do, how do I talk about it without sounding completely crazy or making her look/feel bad about what is happening energetically for me?

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its weird but I thought I was the only one. when either sex locks eyes with me its hard for them to resist or look away even if they want. when I see someone I want I get this feeling that isn't satisfied til I had then and then I feel re-energized. Sometimes I can feel the change and sometimes it speaks to me asking if I wanna be free. My body is so warm im told but I feel so cold and after the exp sometimes I don't remember it or I felt like I was there and helpless..sometimes I can see thru its eyes when it takes over . Ive wondered by im now 35 and still look the same since Ive been 19 around the time I started having these feeling however ive felt other force and seen things since I was a kid

Please help!!!
I have said for many years that i am cursed with men, because i hate to say its hard to resist me, and easy to fall in love with me, which has caused some hurtful trouble. i only thought well i say thought... something told me in my head it said your a succubus. so today i thought id research seeing as i didn't know what one was, and the fact i kept hearing that word in my head. iv only just started looking at my past, its seriously hard for me to stay faithful with ex. apart from my current partner. but we have sex a hell of alot. he is very tired after where as i am , well figure of speech feel more alive, even if i was so tired before. he cant stop kissing me etc says he goes into his own little world when we kiss. I've had the same with exs, but everything goes wrong, sex was all.constant with exs but they said i became horrible like a split personality at times.

Also id like to add. my partner thinks my body is boiling hot all the time, but to me i feel so cold, but warm up as soon as he touches me. he says my sex drive is like im on heat like a cat 24/7.

I am one too. I don't think it is about being a possessed though. It is just who you are. I like to think of the colder more ruthless side as the crankiness that comes with being hungry. We aren't monsters. We are just different.

Just to add something...my husband does not know of what I am even tho he can sense it I'm sure. Also at times I have been so utterly freezing unable to get warm without the touch of a man.

How long u been like this?

For me...I noticed it around puberty at age 11...I am 30 now

So ur the same with the voice and knowing wat ppl want and knowing u have a cold dark evil side in u?

I know that I can be evil and vindictive and sometimes I most definitely will here myself answer myself in a voice that is not mine but I feel coming out of my own mouth. Actually scared the hll out of me the first time. Usually only happens for something I don't know the answer to...usually a male voice in an octive not comfortable for me to speak if I tried to speak that low...but that has only happened twice...once when ai couldn't find my keys my son hid from me...once when my Mom passed out and I was told "hurry she's dying" and she had, had a stroke and once when I was cleaning a big metal fan without the cover on it accidentally turned on and I heard "look out!" Just in time to catch it from cutting my face into pieces...saved my life that day.

Sorry...three times lol

Another thing also: Any unwanted touch by a man or anyone causes me to become very angry with physical power. When I was 16 the manager I work for decided he wanted to get a little extra friendly with his hands and I launched him into a wall.

Correction: the mgr I use to work for...lol needless to say that was my last day...lol

Tru.sounds good to have it.i dont take much notice of voices in my head

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I discovered I am a Succubus a few years ago. I did not know what was wrong with me. Everytime I got near a man my body felt like it was on fire and overly alive. Like I needed him now or I would surely die...but of course I did not act on these desires at first. It didn't happen with all men...mostly men of a certain scent or something. I find myself staring hungrily at several men I work with. But I am married so I do not act on my hunger. I get massive headaches and body aches if I don't satisfy my craving...but my husband as strong as he is even complains of feeling very weak and simply drained of energy many times for several days after sex with me. I feel bad like maybe feeding on other men would do us both good but I can't help but think that as betraying him. I also have found myself also craving some women but not nearly as strong as strongly as I do men. I have a really bad temper especially when it comes to being turned down for sex. There has been some men that claim they practically have felt like I put them in a trance or something and felt as if I was draining them but the feeling was so satisfyingly good they didn't want to stop even after they were spent. I am always careful not to take too much...that's why I usually allow the male to be in control so I can't hurt them. -Poison2Men

how can you be a succubus, if you are mortal? Succubus are spirits, but can possess a human host. Are you possessed by a demon or spirit?... Succubus can travel thru different locations to be with humans. Do you have this ability?

I can definitely relate..at first I wasn't sure if I was alone but now I can see that I'm not. It's so hard to not act on these feelings but when I don't I feel weak. I know it's "morally" wrong but at the same time...I really don't care.

I'm the same way, but male. I've learned to give energy back, sort of like in a loop. I do try to get most of my energy from trees, which are cleaner anyway. :) But I have to admit, it's at least both the forest (which helps quite a bit) and at least sitting, talking, and flirting.

I know how you feel i have been so weak trying not to feed... my boyfriend is always complaining he doesnt feel well and i know it is from me. I crave sex the sweet taste of him as i feed... i been trying eating candy or somethin but it only makes the craving worse... I feel like im going insane...

I'm going through the same thing. My boyfriend is trying to figure out what is wrong and I feel kind of bad about it. It's just so so sweet and I feel energized and perfect but like you I tried to curve these cravings and it has only made them worse :/

You aren't alone. For me, not too long ago I had a very scary thing happen. I seriously hurt my lover to the point I almost killed him. I still can't get over it. The only thing that I have heard was a voice inside of me screaming (almost wailing) because I did not believe what I am. When I started believing, the voice started to calm down as if I had stopped causing it pain. I feed too much sometimes and really hurt my lover. I do not know how to control it and I always am thinking about sex. Mostly the act of feeding thru sex. I feel like I am going insane all the time. When I ignore what I am, it starts to mentally torment me mentally and physically. If I do not feed for a while I start getting headaches and body pains. I get weaker and ppl start looking steaks to me after a while...I know that sounds weird but its true. That's just scratching the surface...

I can relate to alot of you. I am a succubus myself or cambion a half demon born from them. I knew I was a succubus when I found how I react when feeding on sexual energy. We are often mistaken for tantric vampires. I am happy that I am not alone.

If you are a succubus, then you have the ability to travel thru space and visit humans in their sleep. How can you confirm to us that you are indeed born of a demon union? You might be mentally sick.. being a succubus, writing here as a mortal, is hard to believe.

You are not alone ;)

like i said if anyone wants to know more about themself anthonybrownx198069@hotmail.com email me and we can talk

I'd like to get to know you as you continue your journey anthonybrownx198069@hotmail.com
So can we talk?

I can't relate but you are welcome among my crowd and we can teach you to how to survive in this world as fae so you can live if you want email anthonybrownx198069@hotmail.com

I am an incubus. I am also a witch I've been practicing witchcraft for several years but when I lost my virginity 2 years ago bam now I can suggest ideas and ppl do them for me. Ppl want me around them I can also enter dreams not meaning to but ppl will tell me I've had a sex dream with u n ill know every detail. When I was awaken or whatever I also gained a new spirit guide a succubus who frankly scares me but she has also been a big help. Witches run through my family but I know nothing bout this incubi part of me

Omg. This is me to a t. Like I seriously thought I was just crazy. Everything you typed happens and has happened . I fight through it every day and it has ruined so many relationships I never wanted to ruin. And the guys end up staying in love with me for months even years after I accidentally broke their hearts. It's like I love the feeling of knowing I could have any of them back whenever I want to. But at the same time I hurt them all , and did things to get my way with all of them. I don't realize it till after it's been done and I've gotten whAt I've wanted. I want to love and not deal with this and live normally. But it's ******* hard to tame this other ******* side

you cant break my heart this wolf mates for life

Let me help out all of you on your road to self-discovery. What you call being a succubus or incubus is a personality disorder. It means you are a sociopath. Screwing people over and feeling no remorse is one of the major indicators when in the context of doing so without a second thought for the other people.

For the women, be careful. One time you might not be so lucky and a man you screw might decide to pay you back by stalking and brutalizing you or worse for doing ill deeds to him. To the men, the same applies. There is nothing stopping a woman from taking revenge.

take heed what you say cause in real life there are things that go bump in the night and the day you go and fall in love with a succubi vampire werewolf or otherwise and you try and brutalize them or any of your friends try to the fae will kill this human no matter what and make that person disappear why do you think people disappear alot?

well, I believe you need to try speaking to the other side of you. Learn about it. Once you both come to terms...It won't be a burden. Like me same sitch... Try to learn it's name. have talks to it. try bringing it out and having it in real world normal things. such as hanging out with friends. even try learning some of its favorite things. let it try different foods. the good stuff in life. try teaching it there are other things worth doing. explain why you you feel bad or good about something.

fae cant just walk around the human world like that so dont teach a fae to walk around humans

I understand the feeling, though from a different side, I suppose. I have never had any interest in romance or love, and have been jaded for as long as I can remember, but I have always been very sexual, and seem to be very enticing. Men and women alike always stare at me and I often have strangers who flat out tell me that I am beautiful, or sexy. I have always been very good at using my sexuality to influence people, and in the bedroom, whether I am with a man or a woman, they are putty in my hands.All it takes is a touch, just a brush of skin against skin, and I can feel... something like an electric charge, between me and my "prey".I take in this energy during sexual encounters, whether it's just touching, kissing, sex, etc. and it charges me up. As a matter of fact, if I go too long without "feeding", I actually begin to experience severe fatigue, migraines, tremors, and physical pain in my torso.Being a succubus can occasionally be a challenge, but I have found that the benefits easily outweigh the disadvantages.I have never gotten a speeding ticket......

before you go out and feed like this how about you get in contact with me i can get you in touch with other fae that are just like you but different species and you wont have to drain your prey

anthonybrownx198069@hotmail.com email me

Everything you wrote is me 100% I am also what I consider a "third gender" and both sexes are attracted to me.

I understand what you are feeling, it also happens to me like all the time. I’m a guy and sometimes I can’t handle it, I’ve been goggling how to control it but no one seems to know... if someone knows how to handle this please help me ! My grandma used to tell me that it was inherited from her and I couldn’t control my instinct she told me that this power comes with so much more than just absorbing energy, she also said it’s a gift to be more than human.
If you need someone to talk please contact me !!!

I could use someone to helo me figure out what I am before I end up hurting those I love

i can help you figure out what you are and how to control your power

i can help all of you fae come to terms with what you are and help you in controlling your power

look dude. stop perv trolling. you and your lost girl arnt helping. girls this is a prime example of how women with high sex drives can easily be abused. "i can help all of you fae come to terms with what you are and help you in controlling your power" in order to do that this man would recommend sex with him to all of you. claiming he can show you how to control it. if you want to control it, limiting sexual activities is far better for you.

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very interesting

No one will truly understand us unless they are a succubus or have experienced something with succubi. I have learned to control my power for the most part and even use it to my advantage. Growing up I got away with everything just from the look in my eyes and I use that to help my life even today. What we are is not a problem, we are special and should embrace this. Only then can you fully use your powers:)

but there is one thing you sex demons have to understand is that your powers arent to be abused you may have come to terms to what you are but you have to know you are more than meets the eye and that other fae wouldnt like you abusing your power to move up in life

I actually cried reading this. I've been this way for as long as I can remember. And I'm still very young. I'm Constantly fighting with myself. Exhausting myself. I was scared for the longest time. I thought I was all alone.. Everyone I tried to talk to thought I was crazy. They tried to lock me up and they put me on anti phycotics. I thought I was alone and that I'd always be. For awhile I've had control.. But it seems as though I'm losing it. I hope someone will talk to me..

Oh my goodness, I used to think I was the only one! I detest being alone, I'm a hopeless romantic, I want to love...I love a man and he loves me to death, but I'm not contended :( I want all the men to be by my side, I make sure they see only a hot, curvy girl in me and nothing else. I end up cheating easily, effortlessly :( I'm at my best behaviour when I have hots for a guy and I love to seduce men. I even end up getting attention at times I'm not even for it! I don't mind making girls jealous of me, its like.....when I'm getting some guy's attention and sex, I'm all rosy, happy and red with health! But the moment I come across another man, I just take off! :( I don't know why i do whatever i do but i just end up doing it...! Absence of sex, affection, attention makes cranky and snappy...i feel great while making out and after it, but otherwise, I am all messed up and moody and cold, if this doesn't happen for a long time... :( I hurt people with things I say and I regret it only after I've had my way out..and I make sure things happen my way (although i feel so bitched up about them later) I easily end up giving into temptations and right now I'm sleeping with a guy who already has a gf, I feel bad about her but at the same time, I feel awesome about myself..I love, like LOVE to make him all worked up and exhausted. I SERIOUSLY get a high at having guys submitting to me. But you know, I don't have sex or make out with just anyone. I carefully scrutinize whom I want to take up...I'm a calculative, manipulative person...I used to think I was PMSing permanently, but now I know I am just like my ladies <3 I feel much better now. Thank you!

Uhmmm I a guy but im the same way. Im gay and i notice that i attract both girls and guys of all sorts without trying. And people fall for me really quickly, and I mean hard. People actually fall in love with me. And just like you i have times where i just want and I know how to manipulate and get what I want. Its wierd. Can someone explain this to me? Im not a girl exactly so am I like y'all or am I something else?

A male succubus is called an incubus and I am in the same boat as you dude

This is kind of weird to explain. I mean I know we're pretty difficult to be understood by people..you might be a human incubus (the male half of succubus) ..but I'm hardly sure about myself, let alone you :) hehe...maybe we're just bad *******!

wow that interesting and exciting

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HAHA! I have a friend that fits this archetype/otherkin PERFECTLY! She was sleeping with my boyfriend, while trying to seduce me, and she had three boyfriends of her own (who didn't know about each other) and she was also casually seducing other men and women. To thine own self be true. She's a lovely woman, although I wouldnt trust her as far as I could throw her. In fact I wouldn't trust her enough to pick her up to throw her in the first place. But she's a genuinely lovely person.