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Beginning My Life

I was molested as a child by my paternal grandfather and it has damaged me. From being quick to anger to having no intimate moments with my husband. He took my innocence and will to be happy. Well, that is all going to change.

I just joined a healing center near me and I start group therapy in about 2 weeks. I am also currently working one on one with my therapist on this whole ball of hell stuck inside of me. After making the choice to not let him control me anymore, I have found a new me, well a small new me. I have found an outlet for me, a peaceful and relaxing outlet. Art. I've been painting and drawing like crazy for the past few days. I love it!

I am determined to get through my past and get to the present. Yeah I was molested, key word WAS, and I can't live in that anymore. I have flashbacks, so it is like reliving it every time i get them. Im going to be learning skills to be able to get through them and to tell my " little self" that it is ok and my " adult self" is there to help her get through it.

Wish me luck and I wish all of you luck who decide alsoto fight back and get your life in your hands, not the devils.
drkscrt89 drkscrt89 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2011

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i got through the healing season and you can too. My life like yours. You can make it!! Take it day by day and stay determined to get rid of all the hurt, suffering and pain others have put upon you .... when you get to the side of complete healing, you will know it was well worth the pain and suffering to heal. Good luck!!

i got sexually molested by my father since i was born tell age 15. the cops wont do anything about it.

Good observation and examined itself....hope nw u r fine wth best remedy..

Good luck to you, and hang in there. You are not alone. Sometimes things can feel pretty distressful, but it's worth it when you start feeling better. I do art, too. It has helped me a lot, as has writing. Another thing to do in recovery is to help someone else. I wrote a children's book with my own illustrations, still trying to get published. I did a little volunteering at the local senior center. I help my neighbors at times, too, when I can, too. Helping others gets us outside ourselves in a good way. But I know working on my self is helpful, too. Keep us updated. Blessings to you.

Good luck!<br />
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I was told breathing meditation helps with the anger/ irritability/ rage...although it will take me a few months to tell you how that's working out for me...longer if I keep goofing...

Good luck!<br />
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I was told breathing meditation helps with the anger/ irritability/ rage...although it will take me a few months to tell you how that's working out for me...longer if I keep goofing...