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The Shadows Of Our Past....

HERE'S A STORY I'LD LIKE TO SHARE. IT IS A TRUE STORY, AN EVENT THAT HAPPENED TO ME. I WAS LIVING IN DORMITORIES ON A base. I WAS RETURNING FROM CHOW HALL, GOING BACK TO MY DORM. AS I WALKED MY MIND WAS LOST IN MY THOUGHTS. I WAS THINKING OF SOME CHILDREN, WHOM I HAD HELPED RAISE. (I MAY SHARE THAT STORY AT ANOTHER TIME.) AS I WALKED ALONG THE SIDEWALK, OFF INTO MY OWN LITTLE WORLD, I SENCED THEIR WAS SOMEONE BEHIND ME. I MOVED OFF TO THE SIDE, TO ALLOW HIM TO GO BY. & I WENT BACK INTO MY THOUGHTS, THINKING ABOUT MY KIDS, LOVING & MISSING THEM SO. (REFFERRING TO THE CHILDREN I HELPED RAISE.)
I CONTINUED TO WALK ALONG, GOING VERY SLOW, AS I WAS FEELING VERY LOW & DEPRESSED & I WAS IN NO HURRY.
IT HAD DAWNED ON ME THAT THE GUY HADN'T GONE BY ME. I BECAME VERY AGGITATED. DIDN'T THIS GUY REALISE I WAS NOT IN ANY HURRY? AS I LOOKED DOWN, I COULD SEE HIS SHADOW. I MEAN THE GUY WAS RIGHT ON MY HEELS!! BY THIS TIME I WAS GETTING VERY UPSET. SO, FINALLY, I TURNED AROUND TO GIVE HIM A COLD STARE, TO LET HIM KNOW TO JUST GO AROUND ME & STOP FOLLOWING ME SO CLOSE!!
AS I TURNED AROUND TO GIVE HIM A PIECE OF MY MIND, THERE WAS NO BODY THERE! THE SHADOW THAT HAD BEEN FOLLOWING WAS MY OWN!! IT DID GIVE ME A GOOD LAUGH. & IT ALSO BROUGHT TO MIND OF HOW WE ALLOW THE SHADOWS OF OUR PAST TO EFFECT OUR DAILY LIVES.
IN SHARING THIS EVENT WITH YOU, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT, WITH REGARDS TO YOUR OWN "SHADOWS". I PRAY EACH OF US ARE ABLE TO FIND PEACE, TRUE PEACE & TO BE ABLE -- ONE DAY -- TO MOVE ON FROM THE PAST THAT HAUNTS US SO.
LITTLEBOYINSIDE LITTLEBOYINSIDE 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 31, 2012

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i got sexually molested by my bio father since i was born tell age 15. the cops wont do anything about it.

Thanks for your words they gave me hope. At the moment I feel I am being stalked by my shadows. I have been in denial for a long time about the effect my past had on me and it is so painful to realise how I have been creating my own reality ba<x>sed on my past.I get bursts of confidence i can overcome things then I feel helpless and that it is all too much.

MY PAST IS STILL CONTROLLING ME, AS I'M FILLED WITH FEELINGS OF GUILT, SHAME, CONFUSION, INSECUTIES &amp; MORE. I THINK WE HAVE TO FACE OUR PAST &amp; OUR ISSUES &amp; FEARS, IN ORDER TO BE ABLE TO CONQUER IT. THANKS FOR READING MY SHARING &amp; FOR COMMENTING. I PRAY YOU'RE ABLE TO OVERCOME YOUR SHADOWS.

WOW, very courageous and well written.. thank you for sharing this story.

THANKS. THERE'S MUCH TRUTH TO IT.