It Does't Go.

The memory never goes. Never. I've tried a million times to move ahead, but something drags me back to where I started. I'm happy for 2-3 days, completely forgetting everything, till the day when I am reminded of it all. oh, It's so frustrating and irritating. Why is it not just erased from my mind? It's kinda chain reaction, which continues again and again and again. 4 years have passes and I feel I haven't moved a singe step ahead. After making myself really busy the whole day, a time comes when I really don't have anything to do, and that's the time when everything starts coming back. Talking to friends, (best friends) is of no use. They seem tired of my problems. They just tell me ways to keep myself busy in studies and music and etc etc etc, but no one seems to be interested to hear me. Everyone has his own problem, why would I expect them to cry over mine?
Why does it still bother me? It's a long time.... I'm really tired of living with this burden. Want some rest in peace.
Want to cry my eyes out over someone's shoulder. But whenever I try to speak, something stops the voice coming out of my throat. I repeat everything that I want to speak in my mind, but not a sound comes out. Hopeless condition, and I'm tired of it.