I've been through a lot of abuse in my life...verbal,physical, emotional,sexual..i don't really talk about it. I'm afraid if i do the people will look at me differently. I'm always smiling and staying positive and strong to help others..i'm so scared that if i tell people the truth about my past, they'd treat me differently. I was hoping id be able to share the truth here...i don't think i can..letting it out and letting people know..just thinking about doing it makes me feel panicky and scared. Maybe one day i will be able to...maybe one day i will but that day is not today.