Dad Touched Me, I Was Punished For Telling Teacher
I remember my dad touching me below when I was 3. The memory was so much stronger when I was 13 and tried to deal with it then.
I told two girls in my class about it. They went and told my teacher Mrs. Brown. She went crazy and reprimanded me, saying "I hear you have been upsetting 'my girls.' Now, JUST WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN SAYING???"
The way she glared at me made me sh*t myself. I do recall my heart thumping so loud and hard I was petrified. I was afraid that my mum's threats would come true if I told, that social welfare would take me away.... so I said nothing. ( do think she should have been nice to me not shouted and treated me like a criminal.)
That night the 2 girls came at my house taunting me outside the window: "We'll tell your mum what you said to us today if you don't come out and play" ... (I wasn't allowed to because of my strict Jehovah's Witness upbringing- they KNEW that)
My mum heard and invited them in. She called their bluff and demanded to know, they told her but I wasn't allowed in the room to hear what was said.
After I was terrified of the consequences. We'd never mentioned my dad before. At the time of the abuse she was aware, of course. She just distanced from me with a stony silence.
She is a very cold person. She never sympathises or comforts, or gives hugs unless SHE wants them!